Monday, December 3, 2012

Monday

Life is whirling past me is almost a blur lately. 
School , with the exception with my last major tests, is basically done for this semester. 
I may be moving back to Richmond County. 
And, of course, Christmas is just around the corner!


Happy Monday! 


Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Oh, So You're In Love?

Let's just be real for a second.. just one second. 

If you've been dating a week, you do not love that person. You like them a lot and have those intense stomach butterflies that make you wanna puke.
 Trust me, I know what that's like. (I can testify to these things now!) 
I know this is becoming a pretty common complaint, but it's driving me nuts how people on facebook are like: "i love you baby, ur my whole world. idk what id do w/o u. *insert date*" 
Over the past couple of weeks, I've had to restrain myself from making snide comments because I didn't want to start a fight. But, trust me, I know I'm right. If you've been dating a less than a month and you're already claiming that person is "your world" you need help. and Jesus. He's your world. 

When I first told Israel I loved him, I felt like I was going to puke. (of course this is also part of my personality, I don't just go around loving everybody) And let the record show it was like two months after we started dating. I didn't fall in love with him and confess it until like 3 or 4 months. And even then I was thinking I was rushing into things. 

Being with Israel has been the first and longest relationship I've ever had and I'm not terribly ashamed to admit that because I don't have this horrid track record of guys who did me wrong. With that said, I don't know a lot about relationships from a personal experience, but I've witnessed a lot and seen enough lifetime movies to know what works and what doesn't work. Such as, overusing the L word. 

And most of the time people (especially us young whippersnappers with raging hormones) mix up the L words Love and Lust. And that's another post for another day. 

Dating a week= you do not love that person. You have intense butterflies and chances are you just like having sex with them. 

"Don't have sex, you will get pregnant and die" - Mean Girls. 




Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Tuesday Morning

One of my favorite personal pastimes is sitting on the floor writing in my notebook. Obviously I'm not writing in my journal now, but I am sitting on the floor. I've been in my bed all morning and I decided a change of pace would be nice. 
I woke up 45 mins before my alarm went off and it's only 9:07. It feels like it should be 12 by now! 

So far, this morning, I have managed to take goofy pictures of myself, decided to skip class ( its the last week before finals and we are watching a video..), get on facebook, get on pintrest, workout (shocking! I know! I found an easy ab workout on pintrest and since I was feeling lazy decided to give it a go.), and now here I am; sitting on the floor, putting my thoughts out there in cyberspace, oh and listening to George Strait (Don't judge me!). 


I know its been awhile, Thanksgiving has come and gone. I had a great break. The last couple of days, went by too fast though. Now that Thanksgiving is out of the way, we can focus on Christmas!!!!!! 
Ok, I'm not that excited.. 

It's hard to believe that this semester is basically over. All semester I've been waiting for this, and now that its here, I feel like it snuck up on me. However, the weight of the world has been lifted off my shoulders. Yesterday I turned in my final research paper (for this semester). I know I'm speaking for a whole butt load of people when I say that I'll be glad when I get my gen ed credits out of the way and I can start on my Lit classes. After next semestre I should be able to start taking those. 

Now that I have bored you to tears... It's now 9:21. 
I almost feel motivated to clean or do something drastically productive. This is bad. Call the Preist! 

Friday, November 9, 2012

Soapboxes and Pulpits

I DIDN'T VOTE!  

I did, however, almost puke at all the political garbage on facebook. I had high hopes that after everything was said and done people would shut up and get off the soap box. But the results only made them superglue their feet to the soapboxes. 

The pride and the push to make this country a better place that swells around election time, deflates shortly after the winner is announced. ( In my opinion shouldn't it have been obvious that he would get re-elected. I have this theory that Americans are collectively afraid of change, that's why nothing "changes.) 

Any way.. enough of that.. 

Speaking of FB, I've seen people posting what their thankful for, I guess to get into the Thanksgiving spirit and remind themselves that life doesn't suck as much as we think it does. Last night when I was laying down to go to sleep I guess I felt God pulling on my heartstrings since I hadn't talked to him in a few days. I started thanking him for the things I have and he reminded me of a lot that I tend to take for granted. I am so thankful for an endless list of people, places, material things, and I owe it all to God. Last night I went to sleep with a smile on my face and it felt good to know that he's there's always taking care of me, despite everything I put im through. 

There are several current situations in my life right now that have shown me just how great is love is. And as humans I don't think we can fully grasp just how wonderful it is. That said, I've also seen that some people don't just don't "get it." 

Anyway.. 
*steps off pulpit*

Have a great Friday!!!  

Thursday, November 1, 2012

November

I do believe that this year was the first year in my life that I didn't dress up for Halloween.
And I'm ok with that. 

It's finally NOVEMBER!! 
I'm super-duper excited for November (obviously), lots of good things happening. 

1. My best friend turns 21! 
2. My lovely boyfriend and I are going to see a Tom Petty tribute band. ( The real T.P already finished this years tour by the time we checked it out, but this will satisfy completely. 
3. Thanksgiving!! Which means like two days of actual good cooked food. (one thing I've learned at college is that my culinary skills are lacking.) And it means a FOUR DAY WEEKEND!! 

And then of course after this there's December... Which I'm really excited about because school is over like the first week. I can hear the cherubs singing now. 
I'm kinda surprised at myself for being so excited about the holidays this yea. Maybe it's because I'm in love, or more mature..well I'd like to hope I'm more mature ;) 
Anyway, this year I'm welcoming the gobble of the turkey and ringing of the Christmas bells! 

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

"Nice Weather We're Having Today.."

Yesterday I had an appointment with a shrink who comes to the counseling center a couple of times a month to prescribe drugs to sad people at Pembroke and make sure nobody is checking out early.  

One of the questions she asked me was:
" Do you have any hobbies or anything you really like to do. like listening to music or watch movies?"
I responded with "Yes. I love listening to music and I love watching Netflix (thank you Rachel!)

Then she asked: "Do you still find enjoyment when you do these things?" 
And, almost shamefully, I had to think for just a second. Do I really still find enjoyment in things I claim to "love". 

I answered: "Yes." 

This morning I was thinking about this while I was walking across campus. And I had a revelation of sorts, I do find enjoyment in the little things. Like a Tom Petty record, grass (yes, grass), the water fountain at school, the library, Elana becoming a Vampire,.. and so on. That may come across as generic, but life sucks sometimes. (Well, you already knew that.) But sometimes, for me, the windshield of life becomes so foggy that everything constantly sucks and its hard to find hope or enjoyment in anything. So when I can see green grass, the water fountain, and the sunlight hitting is just right so that it looks like everything is glowing (release barf bag now. lol.) its nice to just take a breath and know that there is a glimmer of hope and enjoyment. 







Thursday, October 25, 2012

Registering for Classes: Time Frames, Advisors, and the Email

"All the good classes are going to get gone!" 

First off, I'm pretty sure the phrase "get gone" is wrong.. in some parallel universe, you should just not say that. It sounds tacky. (even though I'm sure I've said it before) 

Second off, I signed up for classes in freaking July and still got in to the ones I wanted/needed. 

If you haven't figured out by now, I'm talking about registering for classes. And since everything is on the freaking internet, everybody expects you to do it by yourself. BIG SIGH. 

I hate having responsibility sometimes. 

Apparently there is a time frame for registration, or early registration I should point out, and everybody is freaking out about signing up for classes. Of all the things I worry about this is not one of them. Mostly, I'm not worried because I am a semester behind and I'm still taking general ed ( and trust me, nobody is breaking their neck to take bio 101). 
BUT it gets worse. (doesn't it always?) 
You have to have a PIN to register.  And apparently my advisor has the my PIN. Yesterday when I went to go get said PIN, she made a call and the other line told her I'd have to go she John Doe to get the PIN. Today when I called John Doe, he told me my advisor should have it. I sent my advisor and email, and OF COURSE I didn't put a subject, so if she doesn't reply I have to resend it, thus more waiting. And she may not even reply today.. 

My time frame to register early ends today. 

Story of my Life. 

Friday, October 19, 2012

Friday Vampires

It's Friday. 
TGIF! 

Today for breakfast I've had Mt. Dew. 

For some reason I'm more focused on if Elana from Vampire Diaries is ever going to pick Damon and turn into a vampire, than anything else. I watched like 5 episodes yesterday.. and I dreamed I was a vampire last night, so I guess that explains it. 

I have my math class, and then I am going home!! 
"Everybody's working for the weekend" - this has become my life lately.I'm sure some of you can agree? 

Since, I'm so caught up on vampires right now, I'm curious.. 
If you could be a "mythical creature" (i guess that the right term?), what would it be? 


Thursday, October 11, 2012

it's going to be ok?.!

It's going to be ok?
It's going to be ok.
It's going to be ok! 

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Take It Easy

I am taking the easy (a.k.a  LAZY) way out tonight. 
I've heard these horror stories of college kidz doing "all nighters". that's not really my style. and since i am in this ever-going journey to find out who i am, i don't wanna do something that may not be like me.  

My Eng teacher told us to bring a copy of evidence paragraphs for our next paper to class tomorrow, I haven't even started. And instead of pulling something out of my butt, I'm going to start tomorrow! Hopefully. And technically I have my first claim written, so I have started somewhat. Real sucky start, but we all know I'm not exactly the model student. After a four hour grocery trip with roommates I do not feel like writing about cell phones.. instead I'll write to you about not writing. 
Oh the irony! 

Today has gone by fast.
Which I like. I hate when my days ddrrraaggg on.
And there you have it. I think I have lost my train of thought... 
Also, I think I may have a small fever. 

Tomorrow is HUMP DAY. Unless you're reading this tomorrow and it is HUMP DAY. 
Half-way through the week. Just keep on truckin', we can do this! 

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Pumpkin Pie

"You need to blog more."

They like me, they really like me.
I like you too ;)


Not a lot going on lately, I was sick last week and missed a lot of school. Not to mention it was fall break, so I really haven't been to school in a whole week. I'm ready to get back. My brain is going to lock into sleep mode and I'll never the light at the end of the tunnel.

That's about it.

College sucks.

Not having a job sucks.

Once I hit the rock bottom I hope I'll bounce back.

Until them, wish me luck.

I'll try to come back sometime soon with something better.

Because you know what doesn't suck.
Pumpkin Pie! and now that its fall, that stuff its everywhere!!


Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Wednesday Update

"life makes love look hard, the stakes are high, the waters rough, but this love is ours." 
Taylor Swift always makes me feel better... most of the time... 

I have survived two whole days this week, a conference with my English teacher, a history test, and managed not to cry when I received a D+ on my last Eng assignment. 
Whew, and it's only Wednesday!! 

As you're now wondering "What?! You made a D+?!!" 
Yes, and I'll have you know that I'm stressing that plus. Instead of having class on Monday and today, my teacher had us schedule conference times to come meet with him in his office. 15 whole minutes. My conference only last 13 minutes, Thank God. 
I did, however, receive good feedback....
 "You're on the right track" and "Don't get discouraged about that low grade, you'll have a chance to revise it."
In all it went well, considering how terrified of him I am. I'm not too happy about that D.. but if I can fix it and bring it up a letter grade, I could be satisfied. 

My apt complex here at Pembroke is hiring a team member. I sent in my resume and sent up a prayer that something good will happen. 

Today is dreary.. it's cool and the breeze is nice, but it's threatening to rain and I have a long walk back to my room after class... I'd rather not walk in the rain. I still have yet to get an umbrella- ella-ella- aye-aye..  

Happy Wednesday Everybody! Hope your day sucks.. I mean. Have a great Day ;) 

Monday, September 17, 2012

me, taylor swift, and israel

SORRY FOR THE ABSENCE!

to be brief and blunt.. i feel like i have fallen off my rocker.
i have come to the conclusion that i don't like school. i i tell you otherwise i'm probably lying. i'm pretty good at that.. or am i? *strokes mustache*

today i have managed to make about 3% progress... as opposed to the 15% i usually try to make.

also today i gave myself a homemade hair cut because i have no money and had absolutely disgusting split ends. however, i have my own scissors, so i just took matters into my own hands. muahahaha.

currently i am listening to Taylor Swift, trying not to fall into the depths of dispair. i've been there a lot lately(hence fallen off rocker)
i am having a hard time adjusting and demons from my past.. that never really stayed in my past have caught up with me. before i reach suicidal breakdown mode again, i contacted my schools counseling service and i'm seeing someone. i just started and so i've really only complained about my english teacher (who is the devil's spawn, btw) apparently i have to figure out what "emily wants". what's going to make her happy? and i'll have you know, i told her my circus idea and she did not object!!!

but enough of that..

tomorrow will mark 6 months of dating Israel. ( a.k.a jeremiah, jerusalem, moses...)
i'm honest to goodness happy about this. yes, of course he makes me jump for joy and goo goo eyed, but over all he makes me content, which makes me happy. i feel like this is one of the most stable things in my life right now. most people don't get that, and people probably think we're crazy, which we probably are, but that works for us.

on an ending note, that's a life lesson i've recently learned: different things work for different people. relationships, school, work, dog preference.. and so on. we have no right to judge what others do.. even that's hard a lot of times. "let he who is without sin cast the first stone" 

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

College+Love=Mind Blown

I have no idea where to start. I have so many thoughts floating around in my head. 

But, as I've mentioned many times before, this IS MY BLOG and I can say whatever I'd like. 
And thank goodness it's not going to be graded! 

My English class is kicking my buttocks. 
My science/weather class has confused me beyond measure. 
My math class is actually going pretty well.. despite how much I hate math. 
My history class is.. well, it's going. 

There are sometimes ( like today when my work in my Eng class was ripped apart and basically scrutinized to poop.) when I feel like dropping out of school. 
But then a little silver lining appears (like when I make B's on my math work) that I feel like I can keep on trucking. 
Today I made a mantra of saying "I hate college." After a little while of that I realized that I don't really hate college, I hate general ed. Classes you have to take because the man says you have to take. When I can take a whole slew of classes I want to take, I think I might be happier.. and then again I could hate those as well. Hopefully we'll find out. You know, if I don't join the circus before then. 

Ok, so that's like 55% of the floating thoughts, the other 45% is my personal, romantic life. 
(which is going pretty good, thanks for asking:) 

Our relationship (me and my boyfriend, that is) is special. And I'm not just saying that because I'm blinded by love. I'm saying that because we have what is classified as a "inter-religious" relationship. 
It's complicated and then again, it's not. 
I'm a christian/Pentecostal and he's a Jehovah's Witness.  
At first it was weird.. and we weren't even sure it was a good idea.. and this is a long and complicated story.. sorta.. anyway, not really the point. 
The point:  Things have gotten really serious in the short amount of time we've know each other/been together. 
We've been playing "the what if and when" game. 
Over the past few days I've also had a lot of those "wow, never thought I'd be here" moments. And with the big, obvious reason it's really been mind blowing. 




Friday, August 31, 2012

Maybe

Maybe I should have stayed..

Maybe I should have gone... 

Maybe I should have ate breakfast.. 

Maybe I should have been more prepared.. 

Maybe these kids in the computer lab should not be on their cell phones...

Maybe I should just drop out of school and run away... 

Maybe I could hitch hike all the way to California, get a waitress job and live from couch to couch until I make it in the big time... 

Or not... 

Maybe I could run away and live off the land, like a pioneer.. 

Or not.. 

Maybe I could run away and meet a genie who would grant me three wishes.. 

That'd be nice... 

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

I've learned..

I have learned over the past several years ( because I'm so old and wise, I "know things" now) that life is constantly changing. Even if you live in the same dead beat town your whole life, you're always moving to a different stage of life. Sometimes it feels like you've leveled up, and sometimes it feels like you been sent to jail, not passing go, not collecting two hundred dollars. Sometimes you can't even collect two dollars. 

I have also recently learned that you can want something so much you can taste it. And then you get it and it leaves a bitter taste in you mouth. You want to give it back and ask the waitress to bring you tea instead of coke. Well in life, a lot of times there is not waitress to change your order, so you have to sneak back to the kitchen and do it yourself. And then sometimes you get caught by the bus-boy and you have to choke down the coke for the time being. 

Right now I'm at a stage in life where I'm trying to teach myself that sometimes you have to choke down the coke because you might like the taste eventually. Or it could be like beer and no matter how much you try to choke it down your stomach turns and you want to puke. 

If you're wondering where all this is coming from... 
I feel like school is kicking me in the butt right now... more like giving me a swirly in the boys bathroom.
 My first big assignment in my English class was to write a paragraph. Just one paragraph. We worked on them in class, in the lab, and got help from the teacher. I had three drafts of this one stupid paragraph and I got a freaking C. I know it wasn't perfect, but  I felt like my grade could've been a little better. 
Not to mention the first quiz I got a D on. And how bad I'm doing in my math class... 
I hate school. 
I said I wanted to be a English teacher... Umm... Needless to say, I'm rethinking that.     
I feel like giving up on school altogether. 
But I've learned that that just makes it worse.
 I'm choking down bad grades, a rough teacher, this semester, in hope that it will get better.                                                                                                                                                                                                  


Tuesday, August 21, 2012

College Weenie

I need a job, or at least some structured activites here at college, or i'm afraid I might turn into an even more weenie. To show you what I mean, I have photo evidence of my weenie-ness. Enjoy: 


I know what you're thinking "DANG, can I dem digits?" 




Ladies and Germs, there is no logical excuse for this. 





So far this is what college has done to me. My brain is still mushy from three months of doing nothing, and the aftermath of last semester. I'm not warmed up for critical thinking, analytical math question that are IRRELEVANT in the REAL WORLD, quizzes (pop or planned), or reading assignments. 

As far as the last hour of my college existence I have been glued to pintrest. 
I attempted the Braided Headband". It's soo cute. And since I'm such an avid lover of the braid, I'm trying to spice up my regular side braid. I think it might look better if my hair was curly, but here's my attempt: 

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Earthlings and Tom Petty

GREETINGS EARTHLINGS! 

I was going to write this whole thing in caps, but I decided not to scream at you for a brief amount of time. To answer your question, no I am not dead and have not been eaten by a pack of savage wolfs. I have just been neglecting my self appointed blogging duties. 

I'm finally moved into my apartment at school! And I must say it's a pretty sweet hook-up. 
Classes do not start until tomorrow, so my brain still feels like mush. I have three classes tomorrow and I'm pretty sure that by the afternoon I'll feel like I've been beat in the head. 

I planned to walk to campus sometime today to walk around and get my bearings, but so far that plan has epicly failed. I've taken a shower, ate lunch with my roommates, and talked to my boyfriend. Walking around in the heat, not knowing where I'm going, just has not yet proved to be an exciting plan. I think I've talked myself into waiting until evening, so it'll be cool.

Right now I'm sitting at a ill angle typing away and listening to Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers. Have I told you about my latest obsession with Tom Petty? It's been so long, I can't remember.
I'm convinced that all there stuff is good. So go to youtube (or spotify if you have it) type in Top Petty and the Heartbreakers and listen to everything!! 

my inner hippie is swooning 



Stevie Nicks: I'm going to join The Heartbreakers 
Tom Petty: but there are no girls in the Heartbreakers 

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Facebook me, maybe?

Facebook is boring me. 
Wouldn't it be cool if super-heros (or other fictional characters of your choice) had Facebook's?


Just picture it: 


Captain America
I just saved the world with my shield and amazing looks. 




Or you know, something cool like that... Anything has to be better than duck faces, half naked hoes, and everybody and there momma making some kind of post about homosexuality. (I thought that ship has sailed, but obviously not.) 
I have twitter and, to me, you're less likely to lose 1000  brain cells in the first 5 minutes of indulging in social networking. 
Of course now there's instagram (which I don't have) and pintrest ( I have that!) AND stumbleupon (also have) to keep us occupied when we feel our brain cells oozing from FB. 


Social Networking sites have taken over the world. People are being warned now to be careful about what they put on there, esp FB, becaue employers are looking you up and if they see stuff they don't like- YOU ARE THE WEAKEST LINK. 


I don't have time to write more.. till the 'morrow! 

Monday, July 23, 2012

Money can buy Happiness

Hey,  What's up. 

Sorry I haven't been attentive. And I'll have you know that I've had so much on my mind lately, that if I would've put my mind to it I could have pounded out some good stuff. 

Like today I had this thought... (this sprouting from the ongoing college what-nots)

IT'S NOT FREAKING FAIR THAT ALL THESE STUPID "CELEBS" ARE ROLLING IN THE DOUGH SIMPLY BECAUSE THEY PARTY ALL THE TIME (JERSEY SHORE RING A BELL???) AND THE REST OF US (NORMAL PEOPLE WHO ARE SCRAPING TO GET BY) ARE UP TO OUR EYEBALLS IN DEBT JUST TO GO TO COLLEGE AND GRADUATE AND MAYBE GET A DECENT JOB AFTERWARDS!!!!! 


sobersnooki.jpg


SERIOUSLY?! 



I mean, come on!! Where is the JUSTICE America???
Land of the free?!  
Yea, Right. Until you get a job and 1/4 of your hard earned money will be sucked out of that no questions asked. Got a problem with it? Well too freaking bad! 


Sorry for the outburst, readers. But you have to see where I'm coming from.
Stressed out doesn't even begin to describe how I've felt lately. 
"Money doesn't buy happiness." 
I think I'd have to disagree a little.. 


Friday, July 20, 2012

I'm going to College

You heard about Colorado? 
Of course you did. 


Tragic. 
It really should be unbelievable that human beings can be so violent, but it isn't. Ever since the fall of man ( if you believe in that sorta thing), humans have been warped. Most of us notice it on a daily basis, sadly society only acknowledges it when psycho- killers attack innocent movie goers. 


Needless to say I will be thinking and praying for said innocent movie goers. Also probably needless to say, what little desire I had to go see that movie is now gone. 






Not to be unsentimental, but by now you're tired of hearing about the sad event and it's time to enlighten you with what's the what what in my life! 

 (the best part of your day, don't deny it) 


I'M GOING TO COLLEGE!!! 
As in like I'm actually moving there. 
No, I'm not trucking half-way across the country to outlive a reckless desire for adventure. I'm trucking an hour away (if you drive the speed limit) to live out the more realistic dream of leaving home for a good education, yet still being close to home. 
I'll be attending University of North Carolina at Pembroke. Instead of staying a dorm, I'll be living in the apartments across the streets. My own room and BATHROOM! And sharing a living room and kitchen with three others. 
I'm super excited!! 
Everything is basically taken care of, just a few more things to sign, seal, and deliver. I.e: signing up for classes and getting shots! Not to enthused about that last part. 




So many things are coming up in the next couple of weeks, I wanna take it all in and not miss a beat. I'm exciting to turn this new leaf over in my life. (needless to say) I feel determined to make the most out of this year. Starting out on the right foot sorta thing. 

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Keep On Keeping On

Last night I had the worst sleep I've had in a long time. 
I tossed and turned and had all sorts of weird dreams. 

Before I went to sleep me and my boyfriend got to talking about "end of the world" religious things. 
Talk about a HEAVY conversation topic.  
As the conversation went on, I just kept getting more and more overwhelmed. 
I think about it and try to find a solution or just something that makes since, and it seems like here lately, nothing makes since. 

The more overwhelmed I got the more on edge I became. 
When I went to sleep I felt scared to move, like I was sleeping on the edge of a cliff. 

Today I woke up, everything still fresh on my mind.
I'm not scared, I'm nervous. 
Is that OK? I have no idea. 

Last night I told him that I feel as like I've been set up to live this life. Your born, you grow up, go to school, get married,.. etc, live a life, get old and then die. That's what supposed to happen! 

Knowing.. or believing that at any moment that will be taken away is a little unnerving. 
For me, the most unnerving thing is not knowing what's "on the other side", if you will. 
We think we have some sort of idea, but nobody knows for certain. 

Thinking Over thinking it this morning, I know there's nothing I can do but keep on keeping on. 

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Me, VHS, & a..... Hooker

"Oh, hello. I didn't see you there"


Could there be a more non-natural way to start off a tv segment? 

No.  There cannot be. 

It's been a few days since I graced you with my witty and otherwise not very remarkable internet presence. Over the course of my absence not too many life changing events happened, so don't worry.

To catch you up a little: 

-Last weekend I went to Charleston/ Folly Beach for the first time (I plan to go back). I have family down there... not to mention Charleston is busting at the seams with life, culture, art, history, beauty, and this free sample dessert that was to die for. I almost fell over in the shoppe, literally. (Mostly because of the heat....) 

- This weekend I will be having a Girls retreat at the beach with my bestest gal pals.. well most of them. 

- Yesterday I went thrift store shopping with my boyfriend and I got Grease and Shakespeare in Love for $2!! (VHS, but hey! awesome movies.. and I still have a WHS player) 

-Also this weekend with said boyfriend we built a fort in his living room and watched movies. Yes, I said fort. It was awesome!  On pintrest I found these "date night ideas". Most of them are stay at home (a.ka CHEAP ideas. Which is great when your broker than a one legged hooker).

-Today I am going to see "Magic Mike" with two gal pals. Thinking about it, I sorta feel guilty because its Sunday.. Then I dismissed that thought because I don't wanna talk myself out of it. 

Now I'm on a roll and could keep going, but food is ready and I'm hungry. 

Monday, June 25, 2012

Update..

The mean reds are over.. now I've moved on to just being dead tired.

This weekend.. is over. Thank God.
However, on a positive note I got a bunch of cute
My little sister has now left on a holiday in Florida, staying with family. It hasn't really sank in that she's going to be gone for like a month yet. I'm sure after the first week or so without her buzzing around, it will get lonely.

...My best friend is hanging out with me and she just turned on E Network... The Kardashians are stupid. OMG. I totally just lost all train of thought and like 4 IQ points.


Wednesday, June 20, 2012

mean reds- mermaid style

i got a case of the mean reds. 
and if you don't know what that means, get off this blog right now! i'm ashamed of you. 
the mean reds isn't like the blues, that when your just sad, the mean reds is when your suddenly afraid and you don't know what your afraid of. 


(go watch Breakfast at Tiffany's)


i find that i end up like this a lot. the worst part is the sudden part. 


i can't sleep and i feel like poop. probably because i'm on my stupid period because i was born as a stupid girl. i hate being a girl.. not that i have a wish to be a boy either...maybe a fish, a bird, or maybe a mermaid. 


i could be a mermaid. swim around in the ocean with my fishy friends in my seashell bra and always gorgeous hair flowing behind me. and unlike ariel i have no desire to walk up where they run, up where they stay all day in the sun, wondering free, i don't wish i could be part of this world. 


when i grow up i want to be a mermaid. case closed. 

Wednesday Boobs

It's only wednesday and I feel like this week has just dddrraaaggggeeeddddd on. 

No school, no work, aunt flow is in town (too much? get over it. this is my blog! and this is my issue! just be a good reader and listen...err.. read!), my boyfriend is out of town, world hunger has not been solved, human trafficking is rapid in third world countries, AND I chipped a nail! 

Yesterday, however, I ran across something on the internet that made this week a little more tolerable. 
I'd tell you about it, but this is one of those things you have to see for yourself


If you laughed your pants off, which I trust you did, there are three more: Transformers, Avatar, and Twilight. I watched these with my mom and I had to pause it and restart  because I was laughing so hard. I had tears in my eyes and my sides hurt, that my friend is a good laugh. 

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

I saw this on Pintrest!

I ACTUALLY DID SOMETHING FROM PINTREST! 

"the way to a man's heart is through his stomach"

For Father's Day my little sister and I made this for my dad.
About half-way through making it I got discouraged, I thought maybe it was too childish. ( even though we are his children) But it got a better reaction than I was expecting, which was a huge relief. 

We made some mild changes to ours so it wasn't a complete copy-cat.. and because we couldn't find one of the candy bars in the store. I was not going a wild goose chase for a whatchamacallit. 

BEFORE

Here we have poster board( I got two pieces, just in case I messed up and practice writing it out first), $16 worth of candy, the computer for the how-to, glue sticks, and markers. Very easy supply list! 

AFTER

We made it portrait instead of landscape because my writing was funky. And if you notice the package of whoppers was the king size. Which was huge and added to the weight. With the poster board being so flimsy, I think it would work better with cardboard, something more sturdy.  
 
I like this project because it took about a half hour to actually get it all on there. And you can change the words around and use it for various events like Mother's Day, birthday.. etc. 
And plus everybody like candy! So its perfect for when you don't know what to get somebody. 

Thursday, June 14, 2012

V-CARD

"Dont have sex, you will get pregnant, and DIE!" -coach from Mean Girls 

If you know me outside of this blog, or even inside this blog, you are well aware that I am not to found of babies, nor do I have a desire to have one of my own. Having said that, it should be no big surprise when I say the very thought of getting pregnant scares the hell out of me.  

Now let's jump back to sixth grade health class. Those horrible images of pubic hair morphing in still haunt me to this day. But in that class I learned a very valuable lesson. 
IF YOU HAVE SEX YOU WILL GET PREGNANT AND DIE! 
translation: if you have sex you can get pregnant!

This very reason, along with the sheer fact that I'm just not ready to "give it up" is why I have not yet had sex. I, Emily Michelle Greene, am still a virgin. 

Your probably wondering "where the heck is all this coming from?"

Ever since I starting dating my wonderful boyfriend I have been bombarded with "concerns" from people who just want me to "do the right thing". 
I'm sorry, the last time I checked, I could cloth myself, dress myself, drive a car, pay taxes, and wipe my own butt. I think I'm perfectly capable of make other PERSONAL big girl decisions on my own. 

If and When I decide upon those things, it should be nobody else's business, except my partner. Not your bothers sisters cousins friend who knows a guy who knows another guy who has this friend who knows this guys cousins sisters boyfriends baby daddy's. 

For all you "concerned" citizens of my sex life (in this case, my non-exsistent sex life), please back off. 

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Hairy Situation

With not working much and not being in school right now, I have a lot of time to sit on my butt and not do much.
I mean I guess I could clean, give back to the community, or ... 
God help me, EXERCISE. 
yea.. or maybe not. 

Today was one of those days when I woke up and did not like what was staring back at me in the mirror. 
Regardless of the fact that my physical appearance sucked! ( breakouts, frizzy hair, bags under my eyes, eye buggers.. and so on.. ) 
I also have the heavy failure feeling drooping on my shoulders. Sitting around looking like a bum, I felt like a bum. Finally about two o'clock I looked myself in the eye and said "take a shower you smelly bum".
After my self- motivational speech I made it to the shower. Once I got in the shower my next thought was 
"humm I should probably shave while I'm in here" 

OMG WHY DO WOMEN HAVE TO SHAVE SO MUCH?!!

It a twenty minute attempt to de-hair myself. Not to mention the next 15 minutes it took to wash my hair, face, and body.  When I got out I noticed that I missed like half the bak of my thunder thighs and cut myself in like three places. It would have been easier to go to a butcher... well ok, maybe not. 
Usually after a shower I feel relaxed and less bum-ish looking.. not today. 
I was so frustrated after I got out the only thing I could do was cry. 
Ok, I didn't cry.. 
but I did use my good lotion and spent another twenty minutes on my hair and make-up.. which did make me feel a little better about myself. 

Friday, June 8, 2012

Where Am I?

Holy Crap, it's been a year since I graduated High School! 
(well technically there's like 4 more days to be considered a full year.. but who's counting?) 

I still have a bunch of high school friends on my FB, so I see a lot of the major news. Esp the buzz about Graduation. 
That was a good day. 
Actually, probably the best thing about high school was leaving it. The whole Graduation season is worthy of celebration, it's like Christmas for smart people.. and dumb people, as long as they passed everything! 

It makes me think... It's been a year and where am I? 
I sometimes hate asking myself this question. But sometimes I find positive things and it makes it worthwhile. 
I'm not on the fast track to Missouri, like I'd thought I'd be. Come to think of it I'm not on the fast track to anywhere. And for right now I'm making myself be ok with that. Until I figure out where I am going, it's ok to go slow.

In the past year I have learned some valuable life lessons:
Slacking gets you no where! 
Skipping class in bad! ..well skipping a lot of classes is bad... sometimes it's ok... 
Starting off on the wrong foot is bad! 
Being honest with yourself and others is good! 
Being logical and realistic is good! 
Taking risks is scary and good and an opportunity to lean! ( and get a cute boyfriend :)

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Go Clean Your Room

I live in an apartment.
It's one of the nicer complexes in the area, however, it has problems.
Like they have this nasty habit of doing inspections. 


If your like me, your all like " WTF?"

WTF?
Seriously, bro?

I completely understand that they want to keep it clean in and blah, blah, blah..
But for someone who doesn't regularly make the bed, it's downgrading to have somebody with a bad haircut and a clipboard tell you when to clean your room. And the bathroom. AND make your bed.
I used to think that I'd be happy always living in the apartment scene.
Now I realize the joys of having your own house.
Nobody to tell you when to clean your room.

And yes, I'm fully aware of how lazy this makes me sound.
But laziness is one of my finest attributes, which is why you love me :)

Also.. on a completely unrelated note. I'm watching the CMT music awards and Journey is performing with Rascal Flatts ( is there one "T" or two?)
First off... Why is journey playing with them??
Second.. what's with the asian?  However, I have to admit, he's good.
Taylor Swift didn't win anything :(  I was sad. 

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Super-Short Love Story

It's been a few days, so today seemed like a good day to blog. 


Weekends are supposed to be the time when you relax and enjoy yourself. Besides New Years', it's the most counted down date known to man. 
For me, I wouldn't describe this past weekend as relaxing or enjoyable, bittersweet, maybe. 
Friday "some stuff went down" ( you know when people say that Jerry Springer issh is about to happen!). 
I won't go into detail about said "stuff", just know it was a sticky situation among friends (money was involved, hence STICKY). 
It was one of those situations where you can 


A: go off the deep end and ruin relationships that have been the salt to your pepper 
or 
B: swallow your pride, be responsible, and learn from it

I chose B. 
I need the salt to my pepper, and I like to think of myself as a reasonable person... I also hate when people turn things into Jerry Springer Episodes. I may not be the most reasonable person on the planet, but I try to be mature. Which is more than I can say for the guests of Jerry Springer. 


After "the stuff" went down..  the genre of my weekend went from trashy reality t.v to a full out romantic drama full length feature presentation. 


SAY WHAT?


For the past two months I have been harboring a secret relationship. (Some of you may already know about it, but were sworn to secrecy) I was crucial that we kept it on the down low ( I'll explain why later). WE GOT CAUGHT! 




In Jan or Feb I met this guy, who just so happened to by my best friend's cousin. ( talk about keeping it in the family.) At first the thought of anything between us never crossed my mind. There's a lot that goes along with that. 
And thinking about it now, it may take two or five post ( from my point of view) to tell you the whole story. 
So for now I'll give you the super-short version.. 


Girl meets Boy. 
Friendship blossoms. 
Confessions of super fat eight grade crush. 
Due to religious differences, agonizing debate on weather to "give this a try". 
Decide to "give it a try"!! However, must keep it a secret! 
Awkward confessions of Love.
Comfortable confessions of Love. 
Confessions of "In Love". 
Torrid Love affair caught by hottie boyfriend's family. 
Girl feels like she is going to be sick. 
Boy, calmly, takes care of it. 
Change of FB relationship status!! 


You think that's a lot? Wait for the full length feature post.
 If you go to my FB, you will see who he is. 
I can't describe how wonderful he is. Honestly, if you saw how sappy I might get, you might think I've lost my mind. Hell sometimes when I analyze this whole thing, I feel like I've lost my mind. 


But that's ok..  






Thursday, May 31, 2012

Cheese Danish

First off, let me say that the strawberry cheese danishes in the vending machine at Sandhills Community College are delicious! 
You might be wondering why I'm at school, eating delicious danishes at 9 a.m on my "summer break". 
I had to take Rachel to school this morning... and her having an 8 a.m class and me agreeing to bring her shows the true meaning of friendship.
I've gotten so used to sleeping in that when the light turned on a 6ish this morning, it literally brought tears to my eyes. On the way up here my eyes were getting heavy and I was falling asleep. 
Dying in a head on collision is not on my to- do list today! 


Not really much on my to - do list today. 
I've been thinking with all this free time I have I should start volunteering or exercising.. you know, something productive. Maybe I'll start tomorrow ;) 

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

I expect better of myself.

Over the course of the day I haven't done much, just to be honest with you. 
(This blog is supposed to be about me and my journey through life... at least that's what I think it's supposed to be about. )
Sometimes I surprise myself at how lazy I can be. Which we all knew that, didn't we? 
My room is a complete disaster. Clothes, clean clothes, are in a pile on the floor, the dirty clothes hamper is full again, my closet kinda exploded on itself and my table and dresser... let's not even go there. 
My bathroom needs cleaning.. not to mention all the stuff that STILL needs to be done for my sister's wedding on SATURDAY! 
I can't start talking about that or I'll be here all night. 


You're probably wondering why I'm blogging instead of cleaning my room or cleaning out wine bottles for the wedding. Stop wondering that! I was messing on the computer and here I am. 
Don't give me that look you know you love spending time with me :) 


Due to certain circumstances I haven't been working a lot lately and school is out, so I haven't been doing much which makes me feel extra lazy! I've kinda gotten into the habit of sleeping a lot and... well that's about it. Sleeping. A lot. 
I'm hoping that once work picks back up I'll have more motivation and not feel like such a waste of space. Plus I'll have some cash flow. Which is always a good sign. "Love that money!" to quote Ricky Bobby. 
I think I can handle work starting back, but I'll admit I'm not ready for school. I finally got everything squared away, classes scheduled and financial aid done. But I'm not mentally prepared. 
Last semester threw me for a loop, to say the least. This summer break I plan on getting myself back on track and ready to tackle school. I had a long talk with myself, well I've had several talks with myself, and I expect better of myself! 

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Running Away to Vegas

Can we just run away into the sunset? 
I wrote a monologue about that in my acting class. Just pack up and go. I'd love to do that. The only thing stopping me is... well. I guess money. And the fact that I'm not really the wondering gypsy spirit I'd like to be. One day I'll work up the nerve to run. ( figuratively  speaking of course. fat kids don't dream of running.)
California sounds nice, doesn't it? 
OOO or Vegas? 
I've had this burning desire to go to Vegas ever since I read a Jackie Collins book and she talked about the circle beds in Vegas. 
CIRCLE BEDS!! 
It's a bed... that's a circle!! 
How amazing is that? I'll answer for you, pretty amazing. 

That's what I want to do. Run away to Vegas. Stay in a swanky hotel/casino, hit it big time at the tables, and shack up in a circle bed with red silky sheets. Ok.. maybe not shack up, but def sleep in it.. alone...
well maybe not alone ;)