Went to Chapel and We got Marrrrriiiiieeedddd

This post is mainly for my Facebook population, but also for the rest of the world that reads my story. 

Yesterday (June 25 2013) I got married! 

Just let THAT sink in. 

I married my best friend and I couldn't possibly happier. (Well, if I didn't have to wait three days for the honeymoon I'd be somewhat happier.) We had a short and sweet ceremony at the church and then had the attendees back at our place for some food and.. video games. We mainly did this because we were living together already and we did want to right that wrong before God. We figured we're going to do it anyway, we might as well! 

Saying that, we are still having that big ceremony/par-tay in October! 

The ceremony yesterday was just what my pastor called the "I Do" portion. We said hopelessly romantic vows and sealed the deal. (too saucy a phrase?) It was short, but so sweet. I cried the entire time. I tried desperately to hold them back and the more I tried, the more they flowed. 
In that place with Israel and our close guests, I felt God with us and I felt his blessing. I am overjoyed at  starting this new chapter in my life. It was perfect. 
One of the happiest days of my life, and the best part is I get to do it twice! 

Life Goes On

I have become so obsessed with youtube, facebook, and instagram.. oh and pinterest, that i have totally forgotten to write about my life. Which, in your case my be a good thing. 


October is nipping at my heels and there is still so much to do for the marriage celebration! Decorations, flowers, hair, finding the right bra, shoes! In the mix of planning, praying, and trying to force myself to not drink another glass of coke, I am going through the growing pains of becoming the person I never expected to be at this point. 
I am 20 years old, getting married, and I have a cat!! Yes, a cat, named Oliver. (He's a rescue and he is a nice cat, who recently got a bow tie and looks adorable!) 
Panning out my own life is a struggle sometimes, trying to pan it out, plan, look into the future with somebody else requires more than writing out your feelings on the internet.  On one hand it's not so bad because my best friend will always be there with me, but on the other hand, it's dooming because you feel like if you go down, you are taking that other person with you. 
I never thought I'd be here. Of course, we all can say that about some point in our lives. I feel like the decisions that I have made lately will take me on a course that I never dreamed of. Which is not bad. It seems scary and I'm scared of crashing to my death, but just before I hit the rocks, God picks me up again. I am trusting in him to make my life something beautiful. 
To be honest, I have a fear of my life, my story being boring, pointless, but I pray everyday that that doesn't happen. Getting married is a huge milestone for anybody; but for me I had, at one time, a notion that it would hold me back, that my life would just stop and everything I wanted for me would never happen. But I have spent time and time again with God pouring my heart out, telling him my fears, asking for help, and I am ready to spend my life with Israel. We aren't perfect, but we aren't alone. All of the things I wanted for me I can have with him and together, we can experience so much more. 

*hands out tissues* *steps off of pulpit* 

Soapboxes and Pulpits

I DIDN'T VOTE!  

I did, however, almost puke at all the political garbage on facebook. I had high hopes that after everything was said and done people would shut up and get off the soap box. But the results only made them superglue their feet to the soapboxes. 

The pride and the push to make this country a better place that swells around election time, deflates shortly after the winner is announced. ( In my opinion shouldn't it have been obvious that he would get re-elected. I have this theory that Americans are collectively afraid of change, that's why nothing "changes.) 

Any way.. enough of that.. 

Speaking of FB, I've seen people posting what their thankful for, I guess to get into the Thanksgiving spirit and remind themselves that life doesn't suck as much as we think it does. Last night when I was laying down to go to sleep I guess I felt God pulling on my heartstrings since I hadn't talked to him in a few days. I started thanking him for the things I have and he reminded me of a lot that I tend to take for granted. I am so thankful for an endless list of people, places, material things, and I owe it all to God. Last night I went to sleep with a smile on my face and it felt good to know that he's there's always taking care of me, despite everything I put im through. 

There are several current situations in my life right now that have shown me just how great is love is. And as humans I don't think we can fully grasp just how wonderful it is. That said, I've also seen that some people don't just don't "get it." 

Anyway.. 

*steps off pulpit*

Have a great Friday!!!