on the bright side...

sorry that i've fallen off the grid. the month of march has proved to be a pre young adult-life crisis. 

i haven't had anything too good to say. from my other post you can tell that life has not exactly been a walk in the park. 

well a walk in the park during a hurricane lately. 

ahh that sounds blissful, doesn't it? 

I'd sum it up for you, but I don't have that much time and I don't want to bore you with my "woe is me" stories. 

On the bright side.. um...

Let's see... bright side? 

I've been sick the past two days. Not really a bright tale, but I've def caught up on my tv watching. 

Speaking of tv, I hate tv. There is hardly anything good to watch. 

Whiney teen girls getting knocked up, crazy rich forty year olds drinking all day and wasting there husbands money, and let's not forget, crazy new yorkers with bad tans, pretending to be crazy new jersy-ers with bad tans. 

no wonder the suicide rate in sky rocketing. 

Wish Me Luck

According to Webster's Dictionary, Depression means:b (1) : a state of feeling sad : dejection (2) : a psychoneurotic or psychotic disorder marked especially by sadness, inactivity, difficulty in thinking and concentration, a significant increase or decrease in appetite and time spent sleeping, feelings of dejection and hopelessness, and sometimes suicidal tendencies.
Well that sounds like fun, doesn't it?
Let me answer for you. 
No. Not it does not sound like fun. 
When I was in the ninth grade I went to therapy for a while. I was depressed. I assumed that after getting over suicidal tendencies, I wouldn't be depressed anymore. Well you know what they say about people who assume things.. 
Any who, before you go assuming that I'm fixing to go off myself, I started out with that because I have been feeling depressed lately. However, the skies are clearing up and I'm starting to feel better. But it's had some really bad sad effects. I'm behind in school, like really behind in school. The only class that I've given any real attention to is acting. 
Also, being depressed causes my brain to think, and overthink. Opening the door to doubt every decision I've made thus far. Esp, in regards to Missouri. 
SAY WHAT?!  
Sadly, the thoughts have been there. 
Is this where I really wanna go? 
Am I ready for this?
Do I really want to be that far away? 
The list goes on and on and on and on. Long list. 
For right now, I'm still going. I need to, I think. If I don't all my nightmares could come true. 
In fact they have this college weekend of sorts, EU24. I'm attempting to register now, but the website won't load properly. So in April I will get a taste of what I'm in for. 


Wish me luck!