Thursday, May 31, 2012

Cheese Danish

First off, let me say that the strawberry cheese danishes in the vending machine at Sandhills Community College are delicious! 
You might be wondering why I'm at school, eating delicious danishes at 9 a.m on my "summer break". 
I had to take Rachel to school this morning... and her having an 8 a.m class and me agreeing to bring her shows the true meaning of friendship.
I've gotten so used to sleeping in that when the light turned on a 6ish this morning, it literally brought tears to my eyes. On the way up here my eyes were getting heavy and I was falling asleep. 
Dying in a head on collision is not on my to- do list today! 


Not really much on my to - do list today. 
I've been thinking with all this free time I have I should start volunteering or exercising.. you know, something productive. Maybe I'll start tomorrow ;) 

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

I expect better of myself.

Over the course of the day I haven't done much, just to be honest with you. 
(This blog is supposed to be about me and my journey through life... at least that's what I think it's supposed to be about. )
Sometimes I surprise myself at how lazy I can be. Which we all knew that, didn't we? 
My room is a complete disaster. Clothes, clean clothes, are in a pile on the floor, the dirty clothes hamper is full again, my closet kinda exploded on itself and my table and dresser... let's not even go there. 
My bathroom needs cleaning.. not to mention all the stuff that STILL needs to be done for my sister's wedding on SATURDAY! 
I can't start talking about that or I'll be here all night. 


You're probably wondering why I'm blogging instead of cleaning my room or cleaning out wine bottles for the wedding. Stop wondering that! I was messing on the computer and here I am. 
Don't give me that look you know you love spending time with me :) 


Due to certain circumstances I haven't been working a lot lately and school is out, so I haven't been doing much which makes me feel extra lazy! I've kinda gotten into the habit of sleeping a lot and... well that's about it. Sleeping. A lot. 
I'm hoping that once work picks back up I'll have more motivation and not feel like such a waste of space. Plus I'll have some cash flow. Which is always a good sign. "Love that money!" to quote Ricky Bobby. 
I think I can handle work starting back, but I'll admit I'm not ready for school. I finally got everything squared away, classes scheduled and financial aid done. But I'm not mentally prepared. 
Last semester threw me for a loop, to say the least. This summer break I plan on getting myself back on track and ready to tackle school. I had a long talk with myself, well I've had several talks with myself, and I expect better of myself! 

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Running Away to Vegas

Can we just run away into the sunset? 
I wrote a monologue about that in my acting class. Just pack up and go. I'd love to do that. The only thing stopping me is... well. I guess money. And the fact that I'm not really the wondering gypsy spirit I'd like to be. One day I'll work up the nerve to run. ( figuratively  speaking of course. fat kids don't dream of running.)
California sounds nice, doesn't it? 
OOO or Vegas? 
I've had this burning desire to go to Vegas ever since I read a Jackie Collins book and she talked about the circle beds in Vegas. 
CIRCLE BEDS!! 
It's a bed... that's a circle!! 
How amazing is that? I'll answer for you, pretty amazing. 

That's what I want to do. Run away to Vegas. Stay in a swanky hotel/casino, hit it big time at the tables, and shack up in a circle bed with red silky sheets. Ok.. maybe not shack up, but def sleep in it.. alone...
well maybe not alone ;) 

Saturday, May 19, 2012

update

I felt like I should update my blog..  
I've started and stopped like 5 times now. 
I can't come up with anything good to say. 

To who it may concern, I have a sty on my eye and it hurts. 
I need to wash clothes ( still). 
I really need to clean my car. 

Nothing much is new. 

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Captain America Saves the Timeline!

I don't know if I should start with confessing my love for Captain America or if I should express how disgusted FB has made me lately. 

Let's start with the captain. That's more fun! 
I have friends that are really (really) into the superhero thing. And I, having never seen any of them ( except spiderman. does that count?), was encouraged ( by encouraged, I mean forced. kidding. ) to watch them. Living under the style of, GO Big or Go Home, I watched 3...ok 2 and a half in one day. And in case you didn't know. Superhero movies are longer than regular hero movies. Hence the SUPER. 
Yesterday I started off my day watching Captain America ( my favorite so far.) and later that evening I saw Thor, and the first half of Iron Man. 
The reason I like Captain American the best is because it's the story of an underdog! And you know me, Imma sucka for an outcast ;) The movie had a little bit of everything, which I also enjoyed. ( and by everything I mean Chris Evans. Hello! hehe. kidding.. well sorta kidding) Morals, action, romance, comedy, wit, charm, bad guys, and Nazi. EVERYTHING!  
If you haven't seen it, I encourage you to watch it.
 Thor was good. The ending left me displeased. HE HAS TO GET THE GIRL! As a girl, I feel that it is my reward if I have to sit through a long ass war movie, there better be a romantic kiss at the end. 
Just saying. 

Now that you are aware of how awesome CA is... you're wondering, why is she upset with FB? 
Well as we all know, or if you live in the state of NC you know, that they passed the marriage amendment. I personally can't tell you how I feel about this because, honestly, I'm torn by it. But there are people who have taken sides and ruthlessly throw down on FB! And if it wasn't bad before, the amendment passed, and the people who are against it are freaking out even more. But honestly, if you think about it, NC IS in the Bible Belt.. so the majority rules when you think about it this way. It's a sticky situation any way you look at it. All I'm saying is keep it off FB.


Monday, May 7, 2012

Deep update on my life!

Summer has finally here!! 
Starting off my summer propped up on the couch because my back is hurting is not how imagined it would be... But you know, that whole "dreams coming true" crap is for the birds.
That come off a bit snarky didn't it? 
Any who.. enough about back pain. 

 The best part about summer is that school is out! Finally I can stop stressing about procrastinating. Such a load off. The one thing I learned this past semester is that starting out on the wrong foot leads to you never regaining balance and falling. Which is exactly what happened to my academic life this semester. 
I've had time to reflect, I guess you could say. I changed all my plans (i.e: Missouri) and now I feel like I'm at step one again. Well maybe not step one, step five wondering if I should back track to step two or close my eyes and jump to step six. So many steps!!!
I also learned that I need to make another plan. I decided not to go to Missouri, but to stay here, get an associates degree and then go from there. My plan to go to  Missouri was fueled by a burning passion to get out and just go. For a long time I felt trapped in my own skin and I thought running away would solve everything. As time go closer and I realized what I was leaving behind ( not to mention the academic turmoil that was brewing) I started to panic. 
Through a lot of thinking and talking and more thinking and more talking and one weird episode of crying, I finally reached a point where I'm not panicking. 
I'm simply just here. 
I've also realized that's it's OK to just be here. At least for right now. Right here gives me the chance to do some more thinking, talking, and crying so that I can figure out what I really want from life so that I get the most out of it.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

american dad is on tv right now!

This is how amazing i am: 
I have accomplished nothing today! 


Now, hold the applause. Today...err, this week I asked for the two days that I work off because I am extremely behind in my history class, and if I don't pass with at least a B, my GPA is shot. Tuesday I was pretty productive. I worked on some quizzes and worked on my monologue. 
Speaking of monologue... My acting class is over! Well I have to take the written part of the final on Friday, but it's only one question, so that hardly counts. 


This semester has been awful, which I have previously pointed out ( and I take full responsibility). But come friday, it will all be over. "Praise the Lerd", in the words of Madea. 


And yes, I am wasting time by blogging instead of taking quizzes. I also have the tv on. That show "American Dad" is on.... why is the alien always wearing clothes?! 

ok... the alien always wears clothes in the episodes!