50 page views in NC

The stats say that I had over 50 page views last month.
I'm pretty sure those were people who just stumbled on this page by mistake because no content worth reading has been added in months.

School is almost over!!
I'm at a point now where I feel like i've wasted my first year of college.
I started off this semester this semester with four classes. I got kicked out of my online class because I didn't keep up with assignments. When I got to be about two weeks behind the teacher said I didn't have time to catch up and receive a good grade, so he instructed an instructor's drop. Then during my melt-down I got behind in my english class, not to mention got totally unfocused and off track. So I dropped that class.
Yes, I am well aware that I took the easy way out. But it was better than taking an F, right?
Nothing I can do about it now.
Ao, now I'm down to two classes. Western civ and Acting I.
Yes, my life is sooooooo hard.

Any Who..
Ohh yes, on the subject of school, I believe I made a decision about Missouri.
I think I've decided to stay in NC, but I don't think I'm ready to quite admit it to myself.
And again, yes, I know that makes no since.. but.. well.. you know..



I changed the background... like the birds?! :)

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today has throughly sucked.

like a freaking vacuum. 

Tim has really pissed me. i know its not his fault he didn't come with the proper software i'd need for school. and its my fault for not getting it sooner. procrastinating. like always. and where does it get me.. 

in the library skipping my favorite class because i had to print out my assignment for English. 

i made a pact with myself that i wouldn't miss any classes this year unless i was deathly ill and could no way possibly drive myself here. i drove here with every intention of going to my first class. 

but no. i had to be unprepared.

not to mention that i've ordered the software... $90 ffin dollars. BTW. and its apparently a download. but before you receive the download you have to send them proper verification that you are in fact a for real student. i'm pretty sure i did that right.. but you know. this is me we are talking about so i'm sure i screwed something up. 

aarrgghh!! i'm not even mad.. ok thats a lie. i am mad. i'm sad. i haven't been this down in a long time. what the devil is wrong with me???????????? huh?! 

i'll tell you what

no.. i want because i've been on the verge of tears for two days and my eye make up looks decent today and i'm not screwing that up!