Friday, July 23, 2010

apparently i want to be a writer and i haven't been on since may!

Hola bloggers,
what is up? So obviously it has been a long while since I've been on. May 31st, to be exact.
There has been so much going on in my complicated life. I'm seriously going to sell myself to soap.net.
Anyways, let's cut to the chase. It's summer and its hot as hell.. so i hear. Never been, and don't plan to visit.


My parents spilt. But that was after my sister left. Rachel moved back home, I just completed reading an entire book (took me all summer but i did it!) and something else I was gong to say, but its slipped my mind.
Yea this hasn't exactly been the ideal summer, but it could be worse. Oh wait. It did. I went last Friday to take my senior pictures and took my ipod. While I was taking my pictures Lacy and Rachel were listening to it. I don't know exactly what happened to it, but it got lost. Yep. Lost. Gone forever. I was so pissed. I still am a little upset but I know that something good will come from this, I hope. In the midst of all this I feel like I'm spinning out of control.
My dad left in June and I really haven't seen him that much, and don't really care to. That sounds rash and maybe it is. But whatever, nice isn't really my thing is it?
We are moving to an apartment, when I say we I mean my mom, my sister, Lacy, and me. The apartments are really nice. And close to our church. Which everybody loves. I do too. But there is this uneasy feeling in my stomach. I want to leave so bad, I can taste the sensation of leaving, but I didn't want to leave my house like this. I grew up here so obviously there are sentimental values here.
Well now I've blocked myself, not really sure where to go with this. That seems to be my constant problem in life. Not knowing what to do next. I know what I want but I feel like I', being tied down by lack of support. People see the negative first, the risk, the cost. I see the good. The opportunities. If this is what God wants me to do I know he will provide for me. I believe that with all my heart. I don't think my purpose is here in Richmond County.

OK so in the midst of all this going on I have come across two groups that are so awesome. Well I think I've come across a few bands since I was last on. "Since October"  "Halestorm" and "The Letter Black" are all great bands that you, dear reader, if you haven't already heard of them you need to go check them out. Go now! Do it! The Letter Black was at the Skillet concert. Which I don't remember if I wrote about or not and even if I did please let me restate that it was epic! Best show ever. I got to meet John Cooper. I almost died. :) So great!
..well I was going to upload an image,but my computer is being gay. Next time I'll do it.