With not working much and not being in school right now, I have a lot of time to sit on my butt and not do much.
I mean I guess I could clean, give back to the community, or ...
God help me, EXERCISE.
yea.. or maybe not.
Today was one of those days when I woke up and did not like what was staring back at me in the mirror.
Regardless of the fact that my physical appearance sucked! ( breakouts, frizzy hair, bags under my eyes, eye buggers.. and so on.. )
I also have the heavy failure feeling drooping on my shoulders. Sitting around looking like a bum, I felt like a bum. Finally about two o'clock I looked myself in the eye and said "take a shower you smelly bum".
After my self- motivational speech I made it to the shower. Once I got in the shower my next thought was
"humm I should probably shave while I'm in here"
OMG WHY DO WOMEN HAVE TO SHAVE SO MUCH?!!
It a twenty minute attempt to de-hair myself. Not to mention the next 15 minutes it took to wash my hair, face, and body. When I got out I noticed that I missed like half the bak of my thunder thighs and cut myself in like three places. It would have been easier to go to a butcher... well ok, maybe not.
Usually after a shower I feel relaxed and less bum-ish looking.. not today.
I was so frustrated after I got out the only thing I could do was cry.
Ok, I didn't cry..
but I did use my good lotion and spent another twenty minutes on my hair and make-up.. which did make me feel a little better about myself.