"It's Friday, Friday"

"I keep on falling in and out of love"
This is not true. But this freaking song.. well song part... has been stuck in my head!
Also still stuck in my head is E.T. The Katy Perry song. Go listen to it and think of me dancing around my room like an idiot to this song.. its a great image I assure you ;)  ( not to mention I was in my underwear while dancing.. well lets just not mention that. )

I had some really great stuff I was going to talk about but then my computer starting acting gay so I gave up and went to my grandmaw's. Who by the way is the best grandmaw in the world. You think your granny rocks? Well sorry. Mine is better! Ka-Hoots to granny Greene! :D

Alas! I do remember one thing.. I had a dream last night about this guy... right now we will not give him a secert name or any name at all because this, like everybody else, may not go anywhere. Any who.. in said dream we were fighting. Like screaming and arguing. ( kinda like my parents relationship) I don't remember what we were going on about but I do remember that I wanted to stop, in the dream I knew it was stupid to fight with him. It was so weird. And I was so wigged out about having this bad dream with him that I woke up with a headache and gave myself anxiety over it. In reality I play fight with him, much like I do with everybody but, I would never really want to fight with this person. I hate fighting esp between a couple. It's so annoying and sad. And quiet frankly makes me want to cry.
If I ever get into a relationship with some sort of seriousness I promise you this dear reader, I will try my hardest to "be the best person I can be" and not cause arguments. OK I don't like where this is going..
On another note...
Umm...
Well...
I have been neglecting my journal... Shame on me. I have been neglecting a lot of stuff. I need to get my priorities straight!
Stop obsessing over boys.. which has become a nasty habit of mine!
Figure out who the hell is coming to graduation! ( which means communicating with my freaking family)
Get things lined up at Sandhills ( yes I'm going to community college. bummer I know.)
Graduate!
Find a Job!
In this order!

Bitch Fit

It has been brought to my attention that I am a bitch.
OK. Let's be honest.. I already knew that but, hearing from other people makes it so much real.
Two weeks ago I invited a friend to youth group.. she agreed to go and I was so happy! Well then I had to go to wal mart with to meet my mom and I also had two other friends in tow ( seems like I have a lot of friends, doesn't it?) Somehow in all the mix of wal mart and all these people I left her out and literally left her at wal mart. (she had her car so she wasn't stranded) I figured she would just meet me at the church.. no. She never came and I just brushed it off. I talked with her today about it and it really hurt her how I treated her.. I seriously didn't mean to do that to her. I know I have issues with balancing my attention esp if  I get around certain groups of people. Hearing this was like a punch in the throat... which I have experienced and it hurts.
I humbled myself and apologized.. somehow that didn't feel like it was enough. The last thing I want is for her to feel like I'm pushing her away, which I know I've done a lot. And even when people call me a bitch for doing that to her she sticks up for me. Which shows you how awesome she is and what an idiot I am for treating her like that.
Which brings the question "Emily, how do you feel about being called a bitch?"
Ha! well.. it really doesn't bother me.. until I treat my friends like shit. but any other time.. nah ;)



I'm stretching my ears :)
size 10 = soreness :(
on another random note I am obsessed with Katy Perry's song E.T!