Wednesday, October 6, 2010

cross your heart and hope to die.

i don't know why you would have to do that unless you really want to. i want to crawl under a rock right now and die. well not die exactly, but i would like to sleep for a really really long time. i feel burnt out, my plate is so full and i'm barely half way through it.

tomorrow i have an ap test, which i'm very scared for. my grade is pretty good in that class and i dont want to screw it up. the senior project is going good the final paper is due monday and then i have to start working on my product with my mentor. (yikes!!) in november i have something booked every weekend. but its all good things! the first weekend is umm something, then i was going to go to youth convention with my church but i dont think i'm going to make it. on the 20th i'm going to open house at western carolina! woot woot! that is going to be soo fun! then that week on wenesday we are leaving for our cruise! my whole family is going on a cruise. i sorta feel bad because my aunt paid for me and my little sister to go, but i'm really just grateful that i get the opportunity to go. its going to be so great being out in the middel of the ocean surrounded by water, leagallly going outside of the US! :D
on top of all this stuff, i'm having to deal with my dad having a girlfriend and my faultering relationship with my (well was..) best friend. i beleive that things have fallen apart and i always feel like i'm being a bad friend because we dont agree on anything anymore. and all this crap with her wanting to get married at 18! is freaking retarded. this is the 21 century for crying out loud, not the 12!
 anyways life is crazy like it always is but i'm trying to tap into my creative juices to make it better.  cant wait to get out of here!!

Sunday, October 3, 2010

yo mommma.

I'm sitting here.. bored. flipping my hair around, eating mint chocolate cookies and listening to halestorm. well now i guess I'm not too bored.

so much has been going through my head lately i can't contain it all. but i don't really have anywhere for it to go.. so i guess I'm stuck with all the crap in my head. if that makes since. it doesn't really but whatever.. for the one person that reads this is OK. i.e me.
as you should know my parents have split and at first it didn't seem like it would be bad, but alas! my parents did make it terrible. my dad is a lying, cheating loser.. in every since of the words. and my poor mom she is just lost and confused and hurt, but that doesn't she is innocent.. it never does.
i started smoking, but it gave me headaches so i stopped. I'm to poor to smoke anyway. ha ha!
lately i have been feeling really really shitty, for lack of better word. i could feel myself falling, fast, back to that place of darkness. where the light doesn't exist and misery is always in control. but luckily God is on my side! he's once again pulled me from the depths of myself, i just have to keep myself on top of things. i had a thought today: what if i put a little more focus on other people and not just me. BAM!! christian moment :) I'm putting a lot of focus on school right now. which i am so excited for. I'm ready to graduate and go to college. i just don't know where to go. i still really want to go to Evangel, however, i am also considering Western Carolina. the thing is if i go to western i can go after graduating, but if i go to Evangel I'd have to wait a year and prepare to go out there. I'm ready to  "go at the seat of my pants" as mother says, but i don't know where.
anywho.. I'll figure it out somehow.
cutting this short now.. well cutting off. updates again soon :)

Friday, September 10, 2010

back to past.

i can feel it again, rising up from my core..
that bad feeling of being alone, and useless. where everything is coming at me at once and i just know I'm not going to be able to handle it.
i hate to admit that I'm jealous.. but i am jealous of every body's happiness. its not fair that everyone around me has things together, and i cant hold on to anything. the smug smile's on their faces makes me want to puke. it strikes the rage i tried to bury but it comes up all the time now. boiling and ready to spew! i cant take it out on anybody but myself and that's not good. "not healthy" is probably the better term.
i don't want people to feel sorry for me, that just makes things worse.

Friday, September 3, 2010

"this is the last night.."

yep. that's right. the last night here on connell rd. i haven't even tried going to bed yet cause I'm certain i wont be able to sleep. plus Rachel is in there so i wouldn't be able to enjoy it anyways.. no offense, I've just gotten so used to sleeping alone.
i still can't get the idea to sink in my head that we are really moving. its exciting, scary frustrating... every emotion all at once. all these people , friends and family, are coming to help us move tomorrow. don't get me wrong I'm grateful, but.. I'd rather them not help. i just have a thing about people touching our stuff, my stuff. i also don't want them to see the ugly mess this house had become. literally and metaphorically.
i don't want to elaborate ..sorry.
i have the time, just not the energy nor the words to express every thought in my head; everything spins so fast its hard to grab on to anything. when i grab onto something, I'll head back and elaborate. now I'm going to shut the lights off and try to sleep. 
 nighty night.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

updated updates!

"we sucked so bad we could be in twilight" - Made the Movie.

No specific reason for opening up with that quote, other than in its context its seriously funny. The movie isn't so bad either. Me and mom are in the process of watching it (we paused to grab some grub).

This week school started back. The only thing I can complain about thus far is that I didn't get a senior parking pass, so I have to park all the way out in underclassman parking lot... which sucks! But I'm still keeping a positive outlook. My classes seem good, so that's good. and that sentence was repetitive.

We are moving this week/weekend. That lady finally moved out and mother put the down payment down. I'm excited, yet confused at the same time. Some part of me wants to be sad. I don't know. I'm just going to go with the flow. College is still up in the air. I'm still shooting for Evangel, however I need to look at other places to apply to also. Don't want to put all my eggs in one basket, as they say.
So that's about all that's been going on lately.
Peace bloggers ;)

Monday, August 23, 2010

GOOD GRAVEY! its august!

Time has flown by this Summer, to say the least.
I just got bank for a Church mission trip to the Outer Banks. If you have never been I encourage you to go, its epic! We did a lot of fun stuff, but we also did stuff for the Lord and that was awesome. Not to mention the reason we went down there. lol. We did some door to door stuff, telling people about the Assemblies of God church down there and inviting them to out wed. night service we did. I don't think anybody showed up that night, but we went out again Thursday and a lot of people seemed interested. Well except that lady at this apartment complex who threathed to call the cops. She was nasty. In every since of the word. She chased us out screaming that we were soliciting. Which we were not! But we left anyway...
The lady we stayed with, Ms. Hazel, was so great. I told her I was just going to live with her, but no I didn't cause you know my mom would miss me ;) 
I could ramble on and on, but I'd be here forever. ..err at least a week.

We haven't moved yet. Yes, that was sussposed to happen a month ago, but that little lady refuses to leave! So school starts wedensday ( UGHH!) and we are still living here! I don't want to go to school, but I am ready for senior to come, and go!  I still haven't made any head way on any decisions about college. I really want to go to Evangel, but I'm torn. I want to go there my parents think i should stay here, so I know I want I just ca't figure out what God wants me to do. .. thats the hard part. I keep praying about, and I still have some time. This year I'm going to try to make the best of school and my grades. Things will eventually turn out good..right?.. I can only hope.

Friday, July 23, 2010

apparently i want to be a writer and i haven't been on since may!

Hola bloggers,
what is up? So obviously it has been a long while since I've been on. May 31st, to be exact.
There has been so much going on in my complicated life. I'm seriously going to sell myself to soap.net.
Anyways, let's cut to the chase. It's summer and its hot as hell.. so i hear. Never been, and don't plan to visit.


My parents spilt. But that was after my sister left. Rachel moved back home, I just completed reading an entire book (took me all summer but i did it!) and something else I was gong to say, but its slipped my mind.
Yea this hasn't exactly been the ideal summer, but it could be worse. Oh wait. It did. I went last Friday to take my senior pictures and took my ipod. While I was taking my pictures Lacy and Rachel were listening to it. I don't know exactly what happened to it, but it got lost. Yep. Lost. Gone forever. I was so pissed. I still am a little upset but I know that something good will come from this, I hope. In the midst of all this I feel like I'm spinning out of control.
My dad left in June and I really haven't seen him that much, and don't really care to. That sounds rash and maybe it is. But whatever, nice isn't really my thing is it?
We are moving to an apartment, when I say we I mean my mom, my sister, Lacy, and me. The apartments are really nice. And close to our church. Which everybody loves. I do too. But there is this uneasy feeling in my stomach. I want to leave so bad, I can taste the sensation of leaving, but I didn't want to leave my house like this. I grew up here so obviously there are sentimental values here.
Well now I've blocked myself, not really sure where to go with this. That seems to be my constant problem in life. Not knowing what to do next. I know what I want but I feel like I', being tied down by lack of support. People see the negative first, the risk, the cost. I see the good. The opportunities. If this is what God wants me to do I know he will provide for me. I believe that with all my heart. I don't think my purpose is here in Richmond County.

OK so in the midst of all this going on I have come across two groups that are so awesome. Well I think I've come across a few bands since I was last on. "Since October"  "Halestorm" and "The Letter Black" are all great bands that you, dear reader, if you haven't already heard of them you need to go check them out. Go now! Do it! The Letter Black was at the Skillet concert. Which I don't remember if I wrote about or not and even if I did please let me restate that it was epic! Best show ever. I got to meet John Cooper. I almost died. :) So great!
..well I was going to upload an image,but my computer is being gay. Next time I'll do it.

Monday, May 31, 2010

everyday.

everyday i am somebody new.
i am not the same person i was two day ago, two months ago, or even two years ago. everyday i evolve into something different, something new. for better or for worse.
everyday i wake up my head is spinning, my stomach is nervous for simple tasks that must be done. my dreams are filled with fears and hopes.. and as i type sitting here I'm constantly reminded that everyday is another step closer to the end. the end of school but with though endings i am happy to say that there are beginnings, beginnings that i am looking forward to. the beginning of summer, the beginning of senior year.
everyday i wake up i am somebody i different. i bring my baggage with me but everyday i try to bring a new mindset.. sometimes its better, sometimes its worse.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

always have an answer

in my youth group we are always told to have an answer ready for when people ask us about Jesus, what he did for us, etc.
well i always thought i had my answer. it went something like Jesus died for everybody and he loves me and you.. really general and blah
but blah is that really my style? no!
ok so here is where the spice comes in ( hold on)

Just a little while ago i was retreating in my notebook, and since im very honest with myself there i was telling my notbook that i have been praying and reading my bible a lot more lately, and that i like the change its made in me. and then i went on to point out that almost a year has gone by since i started writing in said notebook. ( thank you Rachel)
so naturally i went back and looked at the things i was writing, things i was feeling and thinking a year ago.
and i knew they were going to be different than my recent feeling, thoughts, but i never thought i would get the revalation i got.

this is an entry for Tuesday June 16th ,2009 ( not quite a year, but it was one of the cleaner ones) :
.."  man i feel like shit! just to curl up and slowly fade away. a mind at rest and never to be troubled again. where can i get that? Nowhere!"

this was awful. i remember writing that.. it was right before our florida trip. there were /are tons of things that i cant beleive i even said!
this one is from today ( may 4th 2010):
" i've been praying about it so idk whats going to happen but im thinking im going to end up there. im excited for my future!.. "
 there were other things about school and then in the mist of writing that.. BAM! thats when i had my revalation.

last year  and a long time before that i wanted to be dead. ( omg! please do not cry.. geezz. lol) i was so screwed up. im not giving the nitty gritty details but i was a wreck. i had but God in a vault and lost the key. all i wanted was to get out and  i kept running and running, but i was only running myself farther into the ground. you probably cant tell but i can. God saved me from myself. i am happier and i have things in life im looking foward to. i know God has a plan for me to help screwed up sad girls all over the world
:) and im excited for it! im happy to be alive .. last year i wouldnt have said that.

so when somebody asks me why i go to chuch, why i love God.. or anything like that.
i have an answer. God loved me and all the other screwed up people so much he sent Jesus to die for them. i was so abosrbed in my own crap i failed to see that he had something epic for me up his sleeve :)there is a place i can curl up and rest. i can escape all the crap and not worry about it anymore. 
Matthew 11:28-30 :" Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and i will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for i am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

you may not see it yet.. my exterior is pretty rought but God's working on it, and this time im not fighting him :)

so ask me.. i dare you.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

just read it:

scared, battered, beaten, and bruised.
i offer my body to you. mind, heart and soul
its all i have to give.
i am just a peasant brought into your courts by the grace of a savior.
you took my clothing worn of past damages
and gave me jewls i thought my eyes would never see.
my feelings left me homeless but now i have a castle by the sea.
what was lost is now found
everyday i plunge deeper into the abyss of our love.
taking a leap and finding adventure in the walk


... ( to be continued?)

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Skillet.

my hair is a tangled rats nest, im procrastinating on my spanish project, im already for the week to be over, and its only sunday.
"why is she so ready for the week to be over?" you may be asking.
GOOD QUESTION!!! I'm ready for the week to be over this weekend, your truely is going to see the best band in the world! thats right SKILLET! :) its going to be awesome. and i REFUSE! i mean refuse! to leave until i meet John Cooper. Lead vocals and hottest man ever. ( well, he's pretty close up there)
yea. i just a tiny bit excited.

ok thats all the time i have for today..

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

"you fight the world from the inside out"

well well well, hello cyberspace. its been to long.

if your not doing much but reading this here blog entry, go listen to lifehouse's new album "Smoke and Mirrors" its great! i bought and then i fell in love with it and now im recomending it to you. ..see how generous i am :) i perfer song "it is what it is" and "in your skin" thoughs are my faves.. right now.

so to say my life had regained balance is a lie, and we both know that.
i dont generally mention names in here...well i try not to. anywho.
Lloyd has cancer, and my grandma is freaked.  to tell you the truth i am too. Lloyd's a pretty cool guy and he means the world to my grandma. she told my that if anything were to happen to him she is going to move down to aunt amy's. i hate that thought. i really hate that thought. that something would happen to Lloyd and grandma would move that far.

the grass is still brown and the sky is always cloudy it seems.
i cant seem to find enough me time. that sounds selfish. what i mean is there is never enough time for me to just sit and think a sort through the things in my head. too many things i guess. and not enough time in the day.
"im always here to help" easy to do. sometimes it seems impossibble. how can i possibly help my friends and family when im so screwed up?
its easier just to ignore it.. and i know thats horrid but sometimes i cant help it. i get sucked inside myself and everybody else just disappears.

Monday, March 8, 2010

all cracked up

Just because the door is closed doesn't mean there isn't a peep hole.
Through the crack in the wall i can see all your dirty little secrets.
You thought i'd never know
I'm carrying your shame around on my shoulders everyday
It takes me down a little lower
Lower, back to the depths of this endless black hole in me.
Its haunting, taughting, I can't escape.
Everywhere i go i'm reminded of the dirty deeds
Plus the ones that you thought were buried in the past.
But thoughs too seep through the crack.
Even the people who seem to be the closest to you never turn out to be who they seem to be.
People have secerts and we hide behind them and let them rule our lives.
They change people, build a barrier between them and the rest of the world.

Friday, February 26, 2010

12:38 a.m

"stuck, afraid, annoyed by the little things.
 these "not so real" feelings catch up with me at the most inconveinent times.
bubbley joy should be pouring out of me, but i feel not so bubbley. like a bottel of champange gone very bad.

life busy rushing like the blood runnig out of an open wound.
we run and run trying to find a way out, finding that next high, the nexy time we can feel some releif. "

 - excert from my journal on 2*20*10

so today.. err yesterday was my birthday.
i am officially 17. joyfull occasion right?
i thought so too. but now i am having second thoughts..
or third thoughts.. however you want to look at it.
people say these are the best years of our lives.. well thats a lie and i dont care who wants to argue against me. most of the time i win anyway :)

im so ready to be out and away i can taste it.. i had this feeling about driving too. and i love driving, love the feeling of having my own car. its great.. some guilt cause i dont pay anything for it, but otherwise great. so i have a pretty good feeling that im going to like being away at college and living on my own..
now i just have to wait unitil its handed to me on a silver platter :)
yes i have very high expectations!

Monday, February 15, 2010

feb. 15

         ok so its been a while since ive given you any details about my life.. and since like only two people read this, im guessing you've survived. not much has happened. ok thats a lie. a lot has happened.
i obviously dont feel like going into details right now.
but i have a good reason. im getting over a nasty stomach virus. and when i say nasty. i mean nasty.

so i have finally picked up a book and it has my attention!
finally a world far from this has beckoned my presence and i have answered the call.

i have missed only two days this six weeks and i already feel like im failing.
that stupid note policy at school has screwed up my report cards so many times i now have an anxiety issue with it.
so im into a good book my grades are slipping and i need to shave my legs. life is finally returning to normal. :)

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

who cares?

who cares what you have?
i just care that i dont have it.

thats right i said it.
it pisses me off that i dont have ... well i certainly cant tell you what exactly it is.
but you have it.. lots of people have them. people who shouldnt have them. have them! whereas i could handle one, i want one, and yet i dont have one!
this is the story of my life. whatever.
its my life and i've learned to deal. but sometimes i get sick and tired of it.

somtimes i want a new life.. something better. better than this.

a life where i can get and have what i want. in this life i have what i need and most of what i want.
but not this! and you have it. you little bitch!
yep thats right i called you a bitch 'cause right now thats what you are to me.
now tomorrow this may blow over but right now your a bitch.
and surprisingly im ok with this.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

"so hows the meatloaf"

the way my mom makes meatloaf.. is gross. you have to take the raw meat and add seasoning and peppers and ketchup and bread crubs, all this stuff to make a single loaf of meat. however on a better note, my moms meatloaf is great. a lot of people think meatloaf in general is nasty (a lot of people's are) but my moms is great!
so like this single loaf of meat, life is made, or lived the same way.
there are nasty parts (fights with freinds and family) thats the raw meat part. your emotions and feelings. what we put on the chopping block every single day.
there are things in life you might not always see, but we know they are there for us. like God. llike the seasonings in a meatloaf, we cant see God but he's there for us all the time and he makes life taste a lot better than what it used to be.
peppers are bright and organic.like laughter. its real and natural. it has its own uniquie flavor.like sharing a laugh with a friend or threw a text.
ketchup is well obviously awesome anyways. its smooth and goes great with just about anything. so i guess they are like the oxygen everybody needs to stay alive. idk. i just really like ketchup with my meatloaf.
and then there are the breadcrumbs. like my friends and family. it wouldnt be moms meatloaf without breadcrumbs.. life wouldnt be life without my totally crazy friends and not so sane family. but i would be even more lost wihtout them. they are crumby and flaky but quite delicious :)

so these things seperatly can be odd. but if you mix them together and bake it at 350 degrees you have the best life you can get. sometimes you may get burnt or not done all the way.and if things still fail, just add more ketchup ;)  but eventually things get better. the sun sets and rises again and you can mix all the ingradients again.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

not the day i intended.

tick, tick, thump, thump,  ding!
thats the sound of the machine beside me at the hospital. this morning my mom was throwing up acid and othe yucky stuff... so off to the doctor we went. wen we finally got to see the doctor, cause you know they are like celebs, you have to wait forever to see them. anywho. steve (the doctor. who is really nice and has like this alomost awkwad frienship with my mom he called her his girl.. awkward. ) said it was diabetic ketoacidosis. yea huge word. but i think basically its from her lack of insulin.. which is thanks to our fucked up insurance ...her sugar is up too high and the acid in her blood has spilled over... err something like that.. dont quotd me directly on this.
either way she's in the hopital and it may not be that serious. the staff is doing everything they can. so she sould be outta here in a day or two..
im gald cause when hey told us i thought i was going to choke.

on a better note. my dad comes home tomorrow!!
thank God. its been so weird lately with him not being here.
i actually had this weird dream the other night about him coming home.
it was dark and we were all outside on the patio and he come around the corner and looked at me like he didnt know if he should talk or not. then i looked up at him and he broke into this huge dorky grin that only my dad has. and i ran over and gave him this hge hug. it was great. but that would probably not ever happen. see my dad isnt the huggy loveey doveey type. which is fine. cause in not either. but when a hug presents itself.. its very awkward.

anyway.. the machine is dinging again so i will say me goodbyes until next time..

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

no riddles or rhymes

i dont really have much to say today..
who am i kidding i have a lot to say everyday.

but today i seem blank.. like i have all these thoughts in my head i just cant grab one and hold on to it.
exams are here and in full swing at school. two down one to go. i will proudly announce that i made a 96! on my physical science eoc :) go me! and i made a 100 on my art exam. :) so obviously im excited and so glad that this semester is almost over! just two more days.
i am stll stressing though over my reasearch paper. i got an extension before christmas!!! and im still not done. all i have to do is write the conclusion and type and turn it in. ... doesnt seem that hard but for me it is. im super stalling. i so just dont wanna do it.. but eventually it will get done. if its not sone tomorrow and my teacher asks questions i will tell her my dog died :) even thought my dog didnt die.. its really a horrid lie, but gotta do what i gotta do.
so other than that.. yea.

oh yea! tomorrow i also have an interview at subway (eat fresh)!
go me. its my birthday. ok not really. but i am pretty excited. if i get this job it would be so awsome!
a little more freedom and plus some moo-la :)

Sunday, January 10, 2010

its wrong.

and i know it..
i tried making exceptions.
myself got in the way
of his way.

now what do i do?
thats the question i ask.

well all i can do is lay it at his feet.
thats all.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

we went from playing on the playground to slicing our wrists.. PART II

conviction in my spirit man or my concisous mind?
either way the stress is catching up to me.

i cant sleep, all i do is eat..
the faces, the  images of a world once unknown to me
haunt me in the night.
this world unraveled fast.
to fast.
friends with secerts i wanted to know
led me to paths of darkness.
i forgot my flashlight and now i've stubbed my toe.
the pain has left my foot and kicked me in the brain
i worry to much for you
my dear ones.
highschool drama? or lifetime bounds.
these chains are tight and my breath is slipping..
someone's hand? anyone..?
i need something to hold on to.
i want out of this world.
rewind time and take back everything.
but i cant..
that day is crystal clear to me..
the sun was out and a sly smile fooled me.
im the fool..
and i realize that now.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

love, lust, hate

so i posted my last post on my facebook and these are the comments...



Jeff Johnson i'll now leave reply





to lust we have loved,and love we have lust


to life has no purpose but purpose it self.


to hate we have brought on all that was lovely though love we have hated for all that was worthy, why couldn't life be as easy as this a poem for replying to replying a poem?... See More




wow i can write 2 emily my dear we are deep tonight



Emily Greene lust after love



lust after purpose.


heartache and tears splinter the soul.


hate the lovely


hate the worthy... See More


either way we feel something


pain is the game today


tomorrow


no one knows.




together.. we are an ocean of emotions.. lol.


Jeff Johnson some love the lust



and lust the love,and repeat the game as if it were holy


those soulsd that splinter share the world as for worthy there are none


pain has no game the game is pain though hate in repose


the world revolves so peaceful around it... See More


today brings hate as for tomorrow when it will stop, is when the world enters shock
 
 
 
 
Emily Greene love and lust my friend



the game


we lose


the hate we create.


we created our world ... See More


fashioned it with hate


and lied to thoughs who love


us


the inhabitants of this world


small as a parking space.


hate to love the lust


hate to lust the love.

we went from playing on the playground to slicing our wrists..

how?
when?
why?
did life get so complicated??

what did we do to piss the universe off? all these questions and never any answers... never.
no real rythm or reason to the things we do. we act on impulse, hold our tounges, somethings its best to. and sometimes not. thoughts burn our brains black as coal.. the haunting memories of the good days creep up in our dreams and scare us to death.

we ask and we receive something we didnt ask for...
she's scared, he says there is no reason to be.
who can we trust?
why do we lust
the thrill
the sensation
anything out of the ordinary..

they agree
we dont
they love
we dont beleive in love.
i love
but not this way
this way has become to complex for me to follow
to many rules and to many secerts...

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

brittany spears and panic at the disco on my ipod = eargasim :)

wow so its been a little while since i've posted anything.. i have to admit i have been on here and started stuff but they never got finished.

this week we returned back to school after a much needed break. but two days back in and i need another break. which is good cause after exams i get another one :) thank god.
i dont feel like myself lately. ...well i guess i dont know what im feeling cause feeling "like myself" is something i dont recognize either.. bummer? i guess.. maybe...maybe not.
im just trying to figure out what i want from myself, from life, and the people in it.
so far i have no idea. what i want. i just need to get out. get away from this place, these people. together they are an evil force destroying my life one day at a time.

but dispite these evil forces at work.. my music tastes have taken a complete 180.
right now im listening to brittayn spears and in my car the radio is set to a country station!
what? why?
i dont know.. i just like it. its what im feeling :)
and as we all know i act on impulsive feeling... sometimes thats a good thing, other times not so much.





taking one for the team
not my style.
her style is taking one for the whole world.
heartbreak and strikeout
are all thats in the line up.
homerun for the enemy
and the hoe got all the way to second
base.
your emotions whirl up and down
tastey like a hotdog
but sour like a lemon icee.
summer came and gone
winter is here
froze my heart and your brain
close the gates.
we'll be back next season.