i had some deep stuff to blog about.. I'm to tired to blog that deep.
today pastor asked "what is the meaning of life?" see? deep! answer that.. and we will elaborate later.
senior day is tomorrow!
i also had a rant about Austin Andrews ( grin like mule because i know when you read this you will grin. and then you will point it out to me and probably others that i mentioned you.) but i will hold off for now.. that's not deep just kinda long and too ranty for this late at night. however i will point out that i not only have authority issues, i have attachment issues. if we declare friendship.. i expect that to be.. permanent? i guess is the word. even joking.. esp when i can't tell if your joking.. about that friendship not meaning as much to you as it does to me makes me scared.. i feel like a loser for letting it get to my head. obviously this has happened to me before.
i got a fan for my room! sweet victory :)
we did a new song at youth today and I'm pretty sure i lead that song.. and i think it went well. i was quite pleased.
opening night is tomorrow! ahh I'm so excited and I'm trying to get scared and sike myself out. I've been praying and i think it will be fine. i love theater. I'm sad the class is almost over but, i feel like this experience had been good for me. its motivated me a lot more. still not sure exactly what i am doing in college ( baby steps Emily!) but this feels like a good direction.
speaking of?! have i told you that i am throwing around the idea of being a youth pastor.. err something like that. i know that's not something you just decide for yourself, at least i don't think you should, but since the idea is in my head ( and that's not something i would choose for myself) i am pretty sure its a God thing. i still want to attend evangel.. so if i go there i could get a degree in theology (kinda scary) and minor in theater. that leads me to do ministry and theater.. ministry theater. *also if i do this.. well i should do this anyway.. i will get my potty mouth under control!