"you won't believe what i heard.."

Graduation is officially my favorite holiday season. not only are people very generous to you, but its a whole celebration of the end of high school hell! the open is road is right here at my feet. yes, its a bit scary but, overall its what i've wanted for as long as i can remember.  this whole week i've been so happy (its kinda scary) being with my friends and celebrating the end and beginning of things has been great.

not to mention all this free time i've had not having to go to school. i got a few major things accomplished : 

deep cleaned my room! 

deep deep clean my car!!

and cleaned the bathroom up! 

and spent a lot of time with my friends. i went swimming a few times, so i have a pretty good tan started. 

plus today i got a hair trim and my layers shaped up. thank God she did exactly what i asked her. she didn't take any length off and didn't jack the front of my head up. its beautiful. now i just have to go wash it and re straighten it. 

the big day is tomorrow.. i'm so excited! i keep saying i won't cry but i almost cried at my cousin graduation in 10th grade.. no chance i will escape tearless. oh well. i can say they will be tears of pride. i feel accomplished and proud to have made it.. because honestly there were times when i thought i wouldn't. ( math exam anybody?)

on top of all that.. there has been this underlying drama volcano brewing up in the mix of my friends.. none of it is directly related to me but, i have a gut feeling that shit is going to hit the fan. of course its all boy girl drama.. well girl drama too, but when is that never there? 

and can i just say this.. you know how when myspace was really popular or something like that and you had the info box.. in your info box you put all kinda B S in there to make yourself look awesome and almost everybody had "i hate drama" or something of that nature? remember that? figured you would. 

well thats a lie. we both know it. 

somebody comes to you and says " you won't believe what i heard.. " that's the opening line for a drama fest and you know! you will want to hear what that person is going to say. not saying i'm blameless.. i might as well fess up..there are plenty of times that i just feed on other people's drama. or my own for that matter. esp girls. we lie cause we don't wanna seem like petty bitches, but we all do. every last one.

catching you up on my life

just call me a party animal.. 

Saturday two of my dearest friends had a graduation party and i must say it was rather epic. i had so much fun! (isn't that the point of parties... yes but i've been  to other parties where i just look at the clock the whole time) ..wait , i think i've already talked about this... anywho..

i don't believe i've talked about the thing. oh m g! i have no idea what got into me. sunday rolled around and  i still had no earthy clue as to what to say. i was stressing a little but i figured something would eventually come to me.. i mean all i had to do was share my faith ( but of course i have to make things overly complicated!) sunday afternoon rolled around.. nothing. so eventually the clock was ticking and it was time for me to get dressed and go.. i snapped. i started crying like a two year, begging my mom not to make me go. she was clam and talked me through my tantrum ( i still cannot get over that, i am so ashamed of myself). i got there and had my measly note cards,, that by the way had almost everything scratched out on them! i also took along my trusty blog post always have an answer. as i was standing in line.. feeling like i was going to throw up my lunch.. my favorite teacher( who i was so glad showed up!) came and talked to me and my friends continued to encourage me. i eventually just decided to read my blog post.. why i didn't just stick with that in the first place i don't know. i was still nervous and i did my best to focus on the whole service and then they called my name to go up i was literally freaking out.. but once i got on stage i felt relaxed and i literally could feel God with me. I read my post and added some other things to it and i must say it went really well. oh and like a ra tard.. i ended with something like this " yea so umm.. that was a really bad way to end that.. go 2011!"

haha. but it was cool. i was glad i had the opportunity to speak.

since i'm on a roll of catching you up on my life.. 

i got my room cleaned.. and i mean i deep cleaned. i dusted and got rid of some stuff that was just taking up room and i hung up some epic wall art i got for my birthday ( yea, after four months) 

yesterday another friend of mine had a par tay.. where we got eat up with bugs!! then some of us went swimming and i didn't til twelve and my mom was like creeping, waiting for me to come in. she started talking to me about making good choices and drinking and driving.. and somehow she found out about the prom fiasco! all i could do was laugh.. she was half asleep trying to give me words of wisdom, but it was well taken.

yea so um.. that was a really bad way to end that.. go 2011 ;)

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bad cheese and parties!

ever get the feeling that one of your best friends is ... how do we say.. two faced.

i have that feeling now.. its kinda like i ate some bad cheese, plus a feeling of rage. hoes before bros dude! i mean where is the loyalty?? i have had this feeling before from her before but lately its been worse. i mean if you want to put a boy before me go ahead.. but all i'm asking is that you inform me first. as we all know i have boy issues anyway so, i always put my ladies first and i expect the same from you. apparently i expect too much. like i said i have had this feeling before from said friend and quiet frankly i'm getting tired of it. this is dampering my mood...

if you watched my super long bathroom video ( sorry for the stupid angels! ) you know that two of my friends had a grad party tonight.. and it was awesome! i danced hard, laughed hard, even sang hard.. there were a few songs where everybody was singing along, i swear we could've been the glee cast :)

the thing is tomorrow.. and i still have no idea what to say.. i think i have my opening but as far as the rest its still quiet scrambled.a bunch of my friends are going to be there.. i'm not sure how many people are going to be there but the number seems bigger than what i was picturing. i know my story.. i just don't know how to explain in in not complicated terms ( everything has to be complicated with me! )

ugghh. oh well. its late and i'm not even sure why i'm here and not working on this speech thingie.. oh yes i do.. i wanted to tell you have i was feeling sick because i think one of my friends is being two faced.. still not sure thats the right word.

anyway now that i have informed you i will go work on my thingie for the thing

Really long video of me and Rachel :)

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Breakfast and Reality TV

I've been sleeping with my fan on so that I don't die from a heat stroke.. because I have to sleep with covers on, thus conditions for a heat stroke. This morning I woke with a chill and decided I wanted some warm breakfast. I'm not sure if I like that sentence.. any who I ate some oatmeal and it was awesome! It was maple syrup and brown sugar oatmeal. When I was little I used to not like that particular kind of oatmeal, I love the fruit kinds. Peach used to be my favorite.. which is still pretty great.

It's taking me forever to write my nonsense this morning because Khloe and Lamar is on and I have been sucked into the craziness of it all! I desperately wish my life was a reality show.. don't ask me why.. I think it goes along with that thing I said before about me thinking that if I don't document everything in my life I will someday face some sort of doom and regret. ( are you catching on that I stress and worry over the stupidest things?!)

Speaking of stress and worry.. I am going to graduate!! I passed my math exam with a freaking 81! I almost hugged my teacher (there was slight curve) but I refrained.. Cause that could have been.. really weird.

I'll be so glad to graduate. I am so jealous of all my friends who are leaving and embarking on greater things, but I'm very proud of them :) It will be really weird not seeing everybody everyday.. and you know there are some people that I won't ever see again. ( for some people that's a good thing!) But I'm still hanging around for a year so there won't be a clean break for a while.

the thing

I actually got to exempt a couple of exams this semester. Only because they were online classes any other time I'd have to take them  because you know, I never went to school. OK I went... I just missed a lot. I will admit I was an avid skipper. Next semester, in (community) college!,my schedule is Monday, Wednesday, Friday, so I only have three days of school. and my earliest class is at 10. So I have some wiggle room in the mornings. Granted it takes like 45 mins to get there.. but that OK.

any who.. this weekend is that bacca... something or other..It's supposed to be like a church service for seniors. err at least that's what I have been told. I don't know how to say it so I just call it the thing. I was asked to speak at the thing.. I think only because I pointed out that the guy who was asked to speak isn't a senior.. so I opened my big mouth and got into something I not quite sure I'm ready for. I've done this before, but it was slightly different. it was a small church full of strangers. oh well.. I'm looking at this as one of those divine appointments.. maybe I will secretly talk somebody off the ledge. (yea.. maybe not.) I have a post on here from a long time ago that I will base my speech off of. The guy told me to share how my faith has helped me get through school. what he doesn't know is that I almost abandoned my faith, constructed a huge potty mouth, didn't give a rats about school.. but Ahha.. that is where the story is. which is kinda going to be my point. the change was on the inside. It seems messy, it is ( I'm a girl, i have a spaghetti brain) it will work out.. if not I'll just run off the stag in a panic. 

actually I wouldn't do that. 

i will however leave you mid thought because I have to go take a shower.