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today has throughly sucked.

like a freaking vacuum. 

Tim has really pissed me. i know its not his fault he didn't come with the proper software i'd need for school. and its my fault for not getting it sooner. procrastinating. like always. and where does it get me.. 

in the library skipping my favorite class because i had to print out my assignment for English. 

i made a pact with myself that i wouldn't miss any classes this year unless i was deathly ill and could no way possibly drive myself here. i drove here with every intention of going to my first class. 

but no. i had to be unprepared.

not to mention that i've ordered the software... $90 ffin dollars. BTW. and its apparently a download. but before you receive the download you have to send them proper verification that you are in fact a for real student. i'm pretty sure i did that right.. but you know. this is me we are talking about so i'm sure i screwed something up. 

aarrgghh!! i'm not even mad.. ok thats a lie. i am mad. i'm sad. i haven't been this down in a long time. what the devil is wrong with me???????????? huh?! 

i'll tell you what

no.. i want because i've been on the verge of tears for two days and my eye make up looks decent today and i'm not screwing that up!

i went shopping with fleetwood mac

my day was really good. i left school and it kinda turned into one of those "i need a drink" days. 

the song "second hand news" by fleetwood mac is by far amazing :) i don't know 100% what they are talking about.. but i know it makes feel good inside and thats good enough for me. 

"won't you lay me down in the tall grass and let me do my stuff" :)

i bought a sweater for 10 dollars. 

and another cardigan.. and some pretty bracelets. and everything was under 10. plus 30% off. oh yea i did good :) 

perfection is my enemy

of course i'm not in the right aca class that would make my life all to perfect. 
f. 
there is a special transfer class you have to take if you plan on transferring.. i thought i was in that class. nope. i'm in the other required aca. and what does accredited mean?? i hope credits at sandhills are accredited because they have to be to transfer to evangel. i wish i could have just gone this year... but no. that also would have made my life all to perfect. 
yes i realize that i'm a bit of a negative nelly this morning. i'm sleepy and i can't sleep. i tried get on the ball with this online class and i find out i'm not even in the right court! plus i'm supposed to be reading chapter 12 for english.. i left my book at school. 
perfection is my enemy


but despite all that.. the first two days of school actually went really good. yesterday i had a blast in my communications class. my world religion and history classes were pretty good. ironically my english class was the one that won an eyeroll. he talked the whole time.. and his voice sounds like a preacher.. it was putting me to sleep. but i couldn't fall asleep because i'm "one of those people" ,as my sister says, who sits at the front.  and he's one of those teachers who makes eye contact and its almost disturbing. 
today however, i have no school. i get to go to work. yay! (please hint the heavy sarcasm) its not that its that bad.. honestly, i'd rather be at school. 
yea i say that now.. give me a few weeks i may not be that enthused. 
hopefully not though. 

passing out in the traffic circle

"pot should be legalized!" 
yep she went there. my professor that is. i thought i was going to choke.. but she went on the explained how it would put more money into the system if you tax it and stuff. if you think about it, she made a really good point. 


so that gives you a brief insight to my first day as a college student. it was almost surreal. walking around and going to classes i felt like i didn't belong at first.. eventually i got into the groove of it and it was amazing. finally its here. the next step. i have grown up a bit. i felt really good. i was grinning like a mule practically the whole day. 
i've know this for a while now but i worry about the dumbest things. i was literally surprised at how smooth my day went yesterday... that was until i LEFT SCHOOL AND GOT LOST ON THE WAY HOME!  how does that happen? you're probably asking yourself. well first let me point out that school is in the next county over and i'm not familiar with the whole area.. plus the devil lives there... the traffic circle. getting to school is no problem, its leaving thats difficult. i always take the wrong exit. you'd think i'd learn by now.. but i haven't. 


i haven't been keeping up with this as faithfully as i've wanted to.. i know the few people who read this are heartbroken. i love you guys, don't stop reading! this is just a dry spell with all the transitions going on. transitions being: coming home from the mission trip, going back to work, and starting school and within 3 days. i think it all caught up with me yesterday, i kept getting dizzy and feeling like i was going to faint. that was trippy. i've never fainted and from the looks of it i don't want to. i thought about that yesterday.. what would happen if  i was walking around campus and all of a sudden i just fell out on the sidewalk.. somebody better help me up! i couldn't help but laugh at myself. 

epic fail

Jeremiah and Jesus

where to begin?
the spit story?
did you see the tiny toilet?? how amazing is that?! 
pretty amazing my friend, pretty amazing. 


the mission trip was defiantly a success. mission completed. 
i think a lot of our work was greatly done behind the scenes. God worked in each of us, i know i can speak for myself especially and say that that in itself was worth it. not a lot of kids showed up for the vbs... and by not a lot i mean 6 did. yep only 6. but we didn't let that bring us down. we gave out best and it was awesome. the lucky ones who did show up really enjoyed themselves. who knew balloons could bring so much joy to a tiny tot? well after using them in two vbs's this year, i now know that. i could go on and on but i'm not sure how much of my Jesus talk you'd stick around and here.(however, i hope it would be a lot) i'm sure i'll share random stories in the near future as i'm reminiscing.  the bible verse that was our motivation and theme was Jeremiah 29:11. if you aren't familiar with that it reads:
"for i know the plans i have for you" declares the Lord, " plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." 
clearly that is something a college freshman should be leaning on. and i assure you i am. 
speaking of college i start on monday! woot woot. 
who's excited?
well.. i'm.. i'm not sure what adjective to use. i'm def ready to see what all the buzz is about. i'm skeptical about a bunch of stuff. it feels way different than high school ( yes, i know thats the point) and gives me the feeling you have in that dream where your in a crowed hallway naked. thats how i feel. naked. it hasn't hit me completely yet. 
but i'm sure it will smack me in the face on monday. 
wish me luck!.. err pray for me, which ever you feel so lead to do :) 

"look at the tiny toilet.."

This is.. bad video of the awesome bathrooms at the assembly of God in Wilmington.

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Good morning Baltimore

I'm not in Baltimore, I'm in oak island... just for the record. Starting out day two up before the nine am wake up call and before my roommates. So far its been awesome! Yesterday we went to the aquarium,went to the beach/pier, I got spit, and went door to door handing out the vbs flyers. That turned out really well. Praise God. By now you are probably wondering why I got spit on.. no it wasn't from somebody rejecting the lord. It was from one of the guys on the trip.. I'll explain later. For now Godspeed!

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