generally i panic and look down when i see boys that i like. i'm almost certain that it's a mental condition.
however, as of late, i have been slowly cracking the shell open and making contact.
this particular piece of man candy is in one of my classes at school. and for a while i've tried to make small flirty chit chat.. ( Lord help me!) at first, the only thing i did was stick my foot in my mouth, so i backed off. i have a tragic fear of rejection.. btw.
after giving up, said man candy still noticed that i was on the planet, so often i give myself pep talks... and now that i have a plan of action the semester is over! i have really bad timing as well apparently.
any who.. the other day i made great progress! i got out of my first class early and went i went to wait for my next one, guess who was sitting, ALONE i might add, man candy!
i strolled right over to the couch and sat beside him. i grabbed his text book from his hand and threw it on the floor. before he could protest i grabbed his face in my hands and said in a very sensuous voice "i know you've been waiting for me" and i kissed him, in front of God and the computer geeks!
..ok so we both know that really didn't happen. but wouldn't that have been amazing?!!! (yes, it would have) but i did go over there and sat across from him. i said "hey" i pulled out my book to read because i didn't want to look desperate. and to my surprise HE initiated conversation. we talked for like 30 mins before class. it was awesome :)
baby steps.
i have never admitted anything like this to anyone before(err.. at least publicly where it could come back to haunt me).. so feel special!!
i want his number so bad i can taste the text messages. (too much?)
will you look at this.. i'm losing my mind!! what has happened to Emily???!
*that is the though provoking question.
ohh p.s! the best freaking part about this is he's tall!!! he has like 4 inches on me!! :)
however, as of late, i have been slowly cracking the shell open and making contact.
this particular piece of man candy is in one of my classes at school. and for a while i've tried to make small flirty chit chat.. ( Lord help me!) at first, the only thing i did was stick my foot in my mouth, so i backed off. i have a tragic fear of rejection.. btw.
after giving up, said man candy still noticed that i was on the planet, so often i give myself pep talks... and now that i have a plan of action the semester is over! i have really bad timing as well apparently.
any who.. the other day i made great progress! i got out of my first class early and went i went to wait for my next one, guess who was sitting, ALONE i might add, man candy!
i strolled right over to the couch and sat beside him. i grabbed his text book from his hand and threw it on the floor. before he could protest i grabbed his face in my hands and said in a very sensuous voice "i know you've been waiting for me" and i kissed him, in front of God and the computer geeks!
..ok so we both know that really didn't happen. but wouldn't that have been amazing?!!! (yes, it would have) but i did go over there and sat across from him. i said "hey" i pulled out my book to read because i didn't want to look desperate. and to my surprise HE initiated conversation. we talked for like 30 mins before class. it was awesome :)
baby steps.
i have never admitted anything like this to anyone before(err.. at least publicly where it could come back to haunt me).. so feel special!!
i want his number so bad i can taste the text messages. (too much?)
will you look at this.. i'm losing my mind!! what has happened to Emily???!
*that is the though provoking question.
ohh p.s! the best freaking part about this is he's tall!!! he has like 4 inches on me!! :)
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