Re Re: Joe

Go back 2 or 3 posts and I tell you my "sad" tale.
 omg.
It just turned into a nightmare. A freaking nightmare. Our guy Joe (i used the term loosely) is not really a regular guy at all.. nope. He is in his 40's. late 40's. just a quick side note; my parents are in their late 40's!
Let me rewind a bit..
I had talked to Joe for like 2-3 nights in a row and then all of a sudden bam. Nothing. and the last time i did have conversation with him it ended on a very odd note. so the other night i decide to just man up and call him, i was up anyway. so i called and he picked up and said he's call me back. like a dummy i said okie dokie. so when he called back conversation was going semi-normal and then he precedes to tell me that he does't think this will work and he doesn't want to continue communicating with me. his reasons were valid, all of which had crossed my mind to.
 I do have to admit that I was kinda bummed that I let myself like the company (crazy as it was!) and now it was suddenly coming to an end. I felt like I was being dumped. but like a strong women i pride myself to be i said OK and decided to call this short part of my life quits. and the real kicker is when i was going to hang up he said. "OK. so have a good life.."  he didn't say it in a condescending way, although looking back he might should have. so i got off the phone, plugged in my ipod and tried to get some sleep. that was the end of that.
So i thought.
The next day something was rubbing me wrong, it seemed sorta out of character for Joe to do that. so i got on the Internet and googled the creeper. OH the joys of Internet. it brought me to his email profile ( don't ask me why i never looked at it before!!) and low and behold there is no picture, but alas! there was his age. 48.
No you did not read that wrong. I spent two weeks staying up all hours of the night talking to a pedophile! I almost went into cardiac arrest.I was freaking out. i should have know. there were signs. but like an idiot i believed him.
i heard a lady scream in the background a few times, he said it was his mom. and for all i know that was true. but instead of putting a son through college she is taking care of his unemployed ass. or God forbid it was his wife. OH why would that not surprise me that he was married. and i was the other woman! i am not even a women! I'm just a girl.
a girl who can't catch a freaking break.. or at least a boy her own age!

11:51pm

I need to be asleep. I used to go to bed early... now I'm up all the time. It's frustrating . I downloaded this Blogger app and thought I'd try it out. So far its pretty sweet. Maybe since its more convenient I'll blog more... not like it matters, shot in the dark right?

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Re: Joe

Indeed the bells of cupid were ringing in my presence yesterday, but not because of Joe as I'm sure you were fixing to assume. It was because I got my acceptance from Evangel!! I'm so excited about it its disgusting. They sent me a tee and a DVD. It was kinda Corny, but awesome at the same time :) Now if I can just get a visit squeezed in everything will be absolutely perfect. And the way things have been going for me lately perfect my not be so hard to come by.

Ahh yes now I will get to what you want to hear...Joe. I think I may need to redeem myself from the last post.. if freak was used I take it back now. In all honesty I have continued to keep in contact with Joe and it hasn't been that bad. But no. I am not going to convert my religion. Sorry :/ In the midst of these last night chats that we so frequently hold I have laughed so much its stupid.
The perks of having a TV buddy.. That's what we are.. I think. That's what it seems to be anyway. Only in my life does somebody meet a totally stranger(on the Internet!), gives said stranger their number and keep some sort of relationship going with them. Crazy? I think so, but this is ME we are talking about. Emily. Or just call me crazy, whichever you prefer.

playing with fire.. err.. playing withstrangers

"Honesty is the best policy." Right?
Well since I am feeling honest right now let me tell you my small sad tale.
I have this really bad problem of talking to people on the Internet, a really bad problem. At school I have online classes so I have lots of time on the Internet when I have finished my work. Which can lead to really freaky things I've learned. Monday I wasn't doing anything so I was goofing off on the Internet and starting talking to this kid.. let's just call him Joe. I didn't talk to Joe that long before he asked me for my number. Now that should have been a red flag, but I was feeling adventurous that fine Monday. I gave it to him thinking he probably wouldn't contact me anyways. Well boy, was I ever wrong. He called me once and I was busy so he called back and the same thing happened. After the second time I thought he would just give up. Oh no. This kid called me and woke me up, it was like 11:30 pm! Well it gets better because my idiot self picked up the phone! We started talking and I didn't get off the phone until 3am. 3am. I have never stayed up that late.. ever. I also haven't laughed that hard in forever. The only problem was of our different religious views. And that is where is all went down hill. I have never met somebody so pushy about it. I talked to him the next night and it was OK, it was a little more awkward than the first. I really liked this kid (as much as you can like a person in just talking to them in like 4 hours.) But then he started getting really weird like repetitively asking me questions and harping on my answers. Yesterday I sent him an email and when he called my he started jumping down my throat about it. It was so weird.. after I got off the phone I crawled in the bed and vowed to myself that I was done wiht kid. He is all kinds of weird and I have enough problems anyway. Plus he is like 3 inches shorter than me!
That is a turnoff in itself.

wheat thins + chicken salad

Well hello to all you imaginary readers!
Long time, no complaining. Which is crazy, because at this point in my life I have so much to complain about.. and now that I'm here I have not the energy to rant. Shame, I know. I realize you were counting on it. Sorry I failed to deliver.

So are you wondering why I am here after being away for so long? Well either way I shall tell you. I just got done reading this super great book (The cubical next door) which centered around a blog. BTW: the book is really good. Go read it. NOW! OK not now.. finish reading this first then go! Obviously since the book centered around a blog I thought of mine and how it has been neglected these frigid months. And BAM! Here I is.
Now on to something a little more important. Since I often have a conversation with myself and in thoughs conversations frequently ask myself questions, I have a question for you. Why is it that in a really good book there is always a girl and a boy. They meet there is mutual interest, but one of the persons is difficult and refuses the relationship. And alas, right after a nail biting paragraph they realize they were wrong. Then the author finally gives in and they are together, turn the page and the freaking book is over with no sign of a sequel. WTF? right? They build you up, you fall in love with the characters and when the characters get to revel in their happiness you are left at a cliffhanger. Well maybe not a cliffhanger per say, but you don't get to see and of the happiness. I for one think its just plain horrid! Sometimes it takes away all the joys of reading. OK not all the joys, but a lot of them. I vow right here, on the Internet in front of God and ... well any poor sap who reads this, that I will show my readers the happiness of characters I choose to make fall in love!

You have my word. Good day poor saps :)

cross your heart and hope to die.

i don't know why you would have to do that unless you really want to. i want to crawl under a rock right now and die. well not die exactly, but i would like to sleep for a really really long time. i feel burnt out, my plate is so full and i'm barely half way through it.

tomorrow i have an ap test, which i'm very scared for. my grade is pretty good in that class and i dont want to screw it up. the senior project is going good the final paper is due monday and then i have to start working on my product with my mentor. (yikes!!) in november i have something booked every weekend. but its all good things! the first weekend is umm something, then i was going to go to youth convention with my church but i dont think i'm going to make it. on the 20th i'm going to open house at western carolina! woot woot! that is going to be soo fun! then that week on wenesday we are leaving for our cruise! my whole family is going on a cruise. i sorta feel bad because my aunt paid for me and my little sister to go, but i'm really just grateful that i get the opportunity to go. its going to be so great being out in the middel of the ocean surrounded by water, leagallly going outside of the US! :D
on top of all this stuff, i'm having to deal with my dad having a girlfriend and my faultering relationship with my (well was..) best friend. i beleive that things have fallen apart and i always feel like i'm being a bad friend because we dont agree on anything anymore. and all this crap with her wanting to get married at 18! is freaking retarded. this is the 21 century for crying out loud, not the 12!
 anyways life is crazy like it always is but i'm trying to tap into my creative juices to make it better.  cant wait to get out of here!!

yo mommma.

I'm sitting here.. bored. flipping my hair around, eating mint chocolate cookies and listening to halestorm. well now i guess I'm not too bored.

so much has been going through my head lately i can't contain it all. but i don't really have anywhere for it to go.. so i guess I'm stuck with all the crap in my head. if that makes since. it doesn't really but whatever.. for the one person that reads this is OK. i.e me.
as you should know my parents have split and at first it didn't seem like it would be bad, but alas! my parents did make it terrible. my dad is a lying, cheating loser.. in every since of the words. and my poor mom she is just lost and confused and hurt, but that doesn't she is innocent.. it never does.
i started smoking, but it gave me headaches so i stopped. I'm to poor to smoke anyway. ha ha!
lately i have been feeling really really shitty, for lack of better word. i could feel myself falling, fast, back to that place of darkness. where the light doesn't exist and misery is always in control. but luckily God is on my side! he's once again pulled me from the depths of myself, i just have to keep myself on top of things. i had a thought today: what if i put a little more focus on other people and not just me. BAM!! christian moment :) I'm putting a lot of focus on school right now. which i am so excited for. I'm ready to graduate and go to college. i just don't know where to go. i still really want to go to Evangel, however, i am also considering Western Carolina. the thing is if i go to western i can go after graduating, but if i go to Evangel I'd have to wait a year and prepare to go out there. I'm ready to  "go at the seat of my pants" as mother says, but i don't know where.
anywho.. I'll figure it out somehow.
cutting this short now.. well cutting off. updates again soon :)